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The End, A New Beginning, and A Different Fox

tumblr_n9ix1gg1G41t1prrio1_500it’s so funny how closure works.
you either get it or you end up doing it yourself.
i did the latter and it all came to an end today…
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Preparing To Say Goodbye

tumblr_static_a366if6zrogk00gkws8g08ws8have you ever been in a situation,
where you know something is ending or change is coming,
but it doesn’t really hit you until it’s coming?
you can talk all day about wanting to move out your forest,
but as soon as the week or day before,
you suddenly start getting sad and feeling regret.
well welcome to that magical place called “the comfort zone”.
it’s a place where you can feel happiness or content,
but feel attached to what you are use to.
so my entire department was pulled into a big meeting today…
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I’m Cummin’ Up To A New Mountain

tumblr_o255umavie1u4tvlro1_500tomorrow starts my new path on the mountain trail:

“i cum first”

as i said i would from the “no more mr nice guy” break free exercise.
today i have been in a reflective kind of mood.
for some odd reason,
i feel nervous about:

– putting me first
– stop care taking
– no more external validation
– change my thinking with affirmations/responsibility training

it’s like i’m already thinking ahead,
rather than staying in the present moment.
since the foxhole is my “safe person”,
i have been having a lot of slips.
i’ll tell you with what

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The Power of Taking Responsibility For Your Sh*t

tumblr_mtv5blL7F31rtqolxo1_500i believe heavily in the law of attraction.
what you think about is what you’ll bring about.
ever since work wolf froze me out his life,
it has left me to do a lot of thinking.
what i didn’t realize is that it was actually a blessing.
when he left my life,
it’s not a coincidence i started seeing those angel number’s everywhere.

111
1111
222
333
444
1212

all of them all said for me to:

“think positive at that very moment”

okay cool.
so after i started accepting “what is”,
i was led to start reading,
“no more mr. nice guy”.
the last entry i wrote allowed the foxholer,
jay,
to leave a comment that would further more change my life.
he told me to…
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No More Mr. Nice “You Know What?”

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god always gives you signs.
it’s up to you to catch them.

i can admit now,
i was a little slow on catching the signs with work wolf.
in my memories,
i see the good times we had.
that is what makes me miss him.
i am now remembering the shit he did that hurt my feelings.
“since you been gone”
i’m seeing the bad side of things.
bad enough i have to see him everyday.

so today,
something lead me to pick up a book i was reading.
“no more mr. nice guy” by robert glover.
it was a really good read.
i still don’t know why i stopped in the first place.
so as i’m reading the book on my lunch break,
agreeing with a lot that was being said in the first chapter,
i read this…
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A Blessing Should Be On The Way (Optimism?)

77c4cd0648ced29229fac3e25a9b13d7last week was stress.

like…
where is the straight jacket?
so much went down that i felt i was about to lose my shit.
from:

the craziness that is my job
some shit that went down with work wolf
not being able to start my therapy

i literally felt myself falling off my mountain.
a mountain that i worked so hard recently to climb back up.
in a nut shell…
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