the one thing we like to give,
but sometimes can’t handle it when it settles.
once you’re paying it to someone,
it can feel empowering af.
you did me wrong!
now i’m ignoring your triflin ass!
once you’re paid it tho,
by someone you thought you connected with,
it can make you feel like pure shit.
there is no cheering on yourself for walking forward.
“i held my head up high after i was ignored!
pat me on the back!”
it might bring out the secret you may not be over them.
let the narcissists and sociopaths tell it…
they wasn’t shit anyways!”
i might be a different breed.
i was running a little late for work.
as i was walking towards my office,
i see a “familiar” face looking at his phone across the street…
it was work wolf.
he saw me.
i saw him.
….and that was that.
he walked past me like i didn’t exist.
he might work in my area now.
for a minute,
it did mess with my feelings that we are at this place.
“folks who knew each other and don’t want to know each other anymore.”
you’re at this place you don’t even acknowledge each other in passing anymore.
it did made me wonder for a quick second:
i’m okay with that.
you can’t win and keep em all after you lose them.
some folks may not want to be around you.
we had a season and it’s over.
i don’t miss him like i once did.
he wasn’t really all that cool to me.
he treated me like shit and hurt me to the core.
i’ve thought about him here and there,
but it wasn’t from an “emotional needy” place.
there was a “sting” of rejection this morning,
but I’m not surprised it passed rather quickly.
he taught me a lot.
i’ve become this stronger fox because of him.
i don’t tolerate nonsense like i once did.
even if i think the wolf is fine af,
or is some kind of public figure,
you got about one time to turn me off completely.
emotional or any other kind of abuse
red flags of “fuck boi”
if you don’t come correct,
there is a dumb ass somewhere in the forest to deal with that.
jamari fox won’t.
i’ve been the “pinata” for many seasons.
the only beating i need is in my foxhole/mouth now.
even though that work wolf situation ended the way it did,
i hold no hard feelings towards him.
i thank him for being my most important lesson.
i wish him well,
but that chapter of my life is definitely over.
he closed it and i got my closure.
i’d say we are both happy af.