read ^thatas many times as you can. i know i will. as a creative, i totally get hating to work a real job while working on your real dreams.
dealing with the day-to-day grind while dodging idiot bosses can be a downer.
You’ll be surprised how many actors and actresses have to do it while in-between blessings.
from the last entry,
eric d hill is an acting wolf but was living a regula degula life.
i’ve met so many in the industry who work regula gigsto make ends meet in-between.
when the acting or singing work isn’t pulling big moneylike the bigger names,
you will be working a regula gig until shit pops. no cap, but i knew one of the actresses that act(ed?) on that show, manifest. how?…
another person quit today.
another amazing and talented person.
i felt sad because i’ve only known them a few weeks,
but they were so fuckin’ dope.
so i’ve only been there a few months,
but it’s a legit revolving door…
i did not see that coming tonight. i’ve been into all the current harvey weinstein alleged allegations. it’s been the alleged talk in hollywood for years now. he isn’t the only onewith alleged smoke coming out their forest.
having talent is not easy.
being good looking can be a curse.
they gas you up into thinking:
“YOU’RE THE NEXT BIG THING!’
…but at what price?
as a cub,
you sang/danced/acted/modeled in front of a mirror.
you pretended your bedroom was the main stage.
think: grammys or even the bet awards.
you spent countless hours working on your craft.
you took lessons or even majored in college to perfect it.
it’s a good given natural talent. i know. i’ve been there.
the problem is when you have no connections in the industry. hollywood. bright lights; big city.
you are literally starting from the bottom up.
that means you gotta hustle harder than some of the others.
the “big break” is a phone call away. nepotism is their business card.
hitting the pavement getting rejected having your self esteem lowered
…only to do it over and over again.
you get some little gigs here and there,
but the ultimate goal is your name in lights.
it’s tough and can almost be defeating.
that is until you meet someone…
why does going after your dreams feel so… overwhelming? it makes you feel kinda insecure? almost like you want to give up? like why does that happen? why is it when we are confronted with what we want, or something we thought we knewwe wanted, (until we got all the logistics) that we buckle?
it can feel like throwingit in the air, runningfar away,
and nevercoming back. our careers look easy in our minds,
but we have no idea the hard work that goes into it. acting is hard work. modellingis hard work. rapping is hard work. writing is hard work. fashion is hard work. blogging is hard work. college is hard work. careers are hard work.
everything requires some kind of sacrifice. so i had to ask…
the same thing he promoted so heavy,
is the same thing that nearly took him out this world. sad.
this lil wayne situation has been an eye opener.
although it won’t stop people from getting high, or from people signing with young money,
it goes to show you what comes with being “famous”. money, power, respect?
it is all smoke and drank to numb your demons….