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another one bites the dust (job)

 another person quit today.
another amazing and talented person.
i felt sad because i’ve only known them a few weeks,
but they were so fuckin’ dope.
so i’ve only been there a few months,
but it’s a legit revolving door

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He Won’t Be The Last Dick You (Allegedly) Suck To Make It Big

i did not see that coming tonight.
i’ve been into all the current harvey weinstein alleged allegations.
it’s been the alleged talk in hollywood for years now.
he isn’t the only one with alleged smoke coming out their forest.
having talent is not easy.
being good looking can be a curse.
they gas you up into thinking:

“YOU’RE THE NEXT BIG THING!’

…but at what price?
as a cub,
you sang/danced/acted/modeled in front of a mirror.
you pretended your bedroom was the main stage.
think: grammys or even the bet awards.
you spent countless hours working on your craft.
you took lessons or even majored in college to perfect it.
some,
it’s a good given natural talent.
i know.
i’ve been there.
the problem is when you have no connections in the industry.
hollywood.
bright lights; big city.
you are literally starting from the bottom up.
that means you gotta hustle harder than some of the others.
the “big breakis a phone call away.
nepotism is their business card.
yours is:

hitting the pavement
getting rejected
having your self esteem lowered

…only to do it over and over again.
you get some little gigs here and there,
but the ultimate goal is your name in lights.
it’s tough and can almost be defeating.
that is until you meet someone

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Posted in A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI LIVIN' THIS LIFE WE LIVE

Ask Me My Talent

tumblr_mwidaa31Ho1s9ox3qo4_500why does going after your dreams feel so…
overwhelming?
it makes you feel kinda insecure?
almost like you want to give up?
like why does that happen?
why is it when we are confronted with what we want,
or something we thought we knew we wanted,
(until we got all the logistics)
that we buckle?
it can feel like throwing it in the air,
running far away,
and never coming back.
our careers look easy in our minds,
but we have no idea the hard work that goes into it.
acting is hard work.
modelling is hard work.
rapping is hard work.
writing is hard work.
fashion is hard work.
blogging is hard work.
college is hard work.
careers are hard work.
everything requires some kind of sacrifice.
so i had to ask…

You thought it was gonna be easy, huh?
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Lil Wayne’s Not Dead

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the same thing he promoted so heavy,
is the same thing that nearly took him out this world.
sad.
this lil wayne situation has been an eye opener.
although it won’t stop people from getting high,
or from people signing with young money,
it goes to show you what comes with being “famous”.
money,
power,
respect?
not really.
it is all smoke and drank to numb your demons….

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mental homework: (13)

as usual,
i see a comment that makes me stop what i’m doing.
this time it was from tajan in:

I Sing, I Dance, and I Can Make A Man Cum Under 5 Minutes so I’m Headed to Hollywood!

everyone left great comments,
but this one was on point when it comes to the industry and everyone wanting to be stars…

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I Sing, I Dance, and I Can Make A Man Cum Under 5 Minutes so I’m Headed to Hollywood!

this new generation are all “talented”, aren’t they?
everyone has some talent they want to present to the world.
it is almost becoming sickening.
i swear you can’t meet anyone who isn’t “something”.
i haven’t met the new shot lawyer or extremely talented police officer.
everyone who is black online is coming out with a record,
about to star in a movie,
gay guy is styling everyone and their mama,
big tits and fat ass means you are a model,
has work out training videos…

and whatever else to get 2,000 friends easy.
hell, even being a blogger is over saturated.
i’m not trying to knock dreams,
but are these “starry eyed” goals realistic dreams these days?
remember when people said they were going to be a singer and it was fascinating?
everyone who thinks because they can hair flip on stage,
they are beyonce.
i had to ask…

Is everyone black headed to Hollywood?

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