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Aunt Wendy Says You Can Fight Her Crowning Beyonce The Greatest Entertainer, Living or Dead

ya know,
michael jackson was so disrespected while being alive.
it’s sad that even in death,
they are trying to take his legacy away from him too.
how?
beyonce at coachella.
so i heard charlamagne crowned beyonce the greatest performer of all time.
wendy williams was the next one on her show…
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It’s Stormi In The North of Chicago, But A True Saint Keeps The Dream Alive

i love how ^that doesn’t look like her.
anyhoo,
after all the drama,
a healthy girl cub was brought into the world.
khloe kardashian named her “true thompson”.
it doesn’t sound as crazy as “stormi” and “chicago”.
i sense shade,
irony,
and a ton of jokes with the name of that newborn.
“true” actually has a meaning and didn’t come out of her ass.
this is how she came up with the name…
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So Starbucks Having Black Males Arrested For Minding Their Business?

i don’t really drink starbucks like that.
i have,
but that shit is expensive.
it’s weird,
but just before the foxholers sent me the following story,
i found a starbucks gift card in an old christmas card from my last job.
i doubt i’ll be using it anytime soon.
so starbucks is under fire for another racist incident.
~~did i miss the first one?~~
last thursday,
two black wolves went into a starbucks and the hunters were called.
allegedly,
a managing she-jackal called the hunters on them for pretty much sitting.
this is the video that is getting crazy traction due to protests…
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f0xmail: I Think I Found My Soulmate, But I’m Confused AF! Help!?

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Hey Jamari,

I just want to start off and let you know that Ive been reading your blog for quite sometime. (Even back when I was in high school). I used to read just to look at the hot guys but as I got older I started reading your more conversational thought provoking posts.

I recently went through the entire work wolf thread and I can’t say I’m going through the same situation but I felt your pain.

I really need advice from a wise gay black man who isn’t bitter from life and while I dont know you personally I get that feeling from you. You seem very sure of yourself and not scarred from your past.

Here’s my situation

I’ve been in love with the same man for almost 9 years and we’ve never been together. We’ve never had sex. The furthest we’ve gone is a couple explicit pics and kissing.

We met in high school. I was 14 and a freshman and he was 17 and a senior. We were both new to the school and he was (and still is) a very attractive man. 6 ft nice brown skin kinda lanky and beautiful eyes. He was and is still the finest man I’ve ever laid eyes on.

He starting dating this other senior but he and I were talking the whole time. A whole lot of drama transpired during that time but I stood by him.

When they broke up he asked me to be with him but I told him to wait (they were barely broken up) because I wanted him to heal before he and I walked into anything. That mf went and got into another relationship this time the guy was just A year older than me ( I was 15 and a sophomore at this point). We went back and forth falling in and out of each others lives. He ended up going to the military when I was 17 and we fell out for a good while. I have to admit I did my fair share of wrong.

I lied to him and told him I lost my virginity, so he went and had sex with some random and I told him the truth and he was really hurt.

Now I’m 23 and he’s about to be 26. He’s still in the military but he’s at school in our hometown. He and I have talked about where we stand with each other.

He’s told me that he loves me. He also said that he’d be afraid of cheating on me. I was slightly offended and I told him that it kind of killed my romantic feelings for him. He then explains to me that I misunderstand him.

He hasnt been in a relationship in 7 years. He’s afraid of it. He says that he doesnt know how to be in one. Considering the last 2 that he was in he emotionally cheated on both of them with me.

Now I recently got of a 3 year relationship myself last year (which is a whole nother can of worms).

But this man just does something to me jamari. Not only is he a great friend (helps me financially, gives emotional support good advice, great conversations) but he is everything I want in a man. I told him last year I felt like our souls were tied and we’ve never even had sex. It feels crazy to love someone like this and to have never even been physically intimate. With them.

He still resents me for the times I kicked him out of my life and I resent him for stringing me along these relationships.

Even recently he was talking to this guy. The entire time they were dating he’s telling me that it won’t last long or that it won’t work out. (It didn’t)

Jamari. He’s told me that he’s expecting for me to kick him out of life again and tbh sometimes I wonder if I’m gonna do it. I don’t want to do it because I know how much this hurts my friend and all the romantic shit aside me and him are really good bros but the other part of me would rather not see him than to exist in this limbo like state. I don’t wanna pull no ultimatum tho.

He recently asked me to accompany him to New York this summer for a week long vacay (just the two of us) he also wants to pay for me to get my passport because he wants us to travel out of the country together but yet we’ve never fucked, we aint never been together and as far as I see we arent headed down that route but every time we see each other we kissing and hugging and feeling and talking like tomorrow don’t even exist.

Jamari I feel it in my gut, in my heart and in my spirit that this man is soulmate.

But how tf do I navigate this situation?

MY ANSWER…

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Beyonce Was Crowned “Better Than Michael Jackson” At Coachella

i’m not a new school beyonce fan.
i’ve followed her in destiny’s child and her solo career.
i have bought almost every album,
single,
and have tuned into every performance.
i begged to buy “the writings on the wall”,
which is my favorite dc album.
i still remember getting it from tower records.
it came with the “bills bills bills” remix with sporty theivs.
she might have made me say “sit down b” a few times,
and the hive can be a tad insufferable,
but i’ve been with her since army fatigue and much music.
well last night during her coachella performance…
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