Aye J, I’s in trouble again:
I’M FEELING MY GOTDAMN BOSS.
So, in September of last year, we got a new guy as our manager:
-32 (I’m 25)
-Short haired & scruffy
-Very much rock band member-esque
..basically NOT MY TYPE at all. LMAO. I like flavored men. I see myself with a flavored man. Yeah. Flavored.
He’s gay, but masculine, sweet, corny (in an adorable way) and loves music (as I do). I really didn’t think much of him at the beginning, probably because in the physical sense, I wasn’t drawn to him. But as you know, its quite easy to fall for someone even if they don’t tickle your fancy in the looks department, especially if you’re a hopeless ass romantic like me. And that’s exactly what I’ve foolishly done: Fell for him. DAMMIT! What have I fucking done?! It’s to the point now that I see something in his physical now too… like a tall teddy bear. (Shit, I’m getting all warm and fuzzy as I type this! LORD.) This would be easy if he wasn’t the boss of me, but he is. Interoffice affairs are a no-no… and he’s even expressed how much he dislikes them. (He said he experienced it once.) His actions say so much of the opposite though; flirts like a MOTHERFUCKER, longingly stares at me (I can feel him staring from across the room!), makes sly remarks about how I need a white guy in my life since I’ve never dated one (I respond accordingly… he’s never been with a black guy) and the energy between the both of us is a bit telltale. On the flipside, he’ll say things about how he doesn’t believe in love because he’s scared of falling in love again and shit, but he ain’t foolin’ this nigga. He’s a mushy, romantic dude who’s (basically) damaged goods.
I know I can romanticize things, but am I in this situation? I’m at a loss… I have no clue what I’m supposed to do here. Do I deny this “crush” or fall back a bit and see where this may go? I feel dumb for texting him at times, thinking I’m foolish for believing in this, but I do.
J, what is my next move?
she was performing her single,
“living for love“,
at the brit awards and busted her ass.
i hope she is okay,
Continue reading “Madonna Is Falling For Love (Fallen Heart)”
i think my neighbors must have heard me laughing my ass off at this…
Continue reading “I Just Wanted To Do Hoodrat Shit With My Friends (37)”
fall also means its time to splash new scents to spray on your fur.
its time to put away summery colognes away and introduce your fall scent.
ones that won’t make us suffocate during cuddle time.
so i had to ask for fox swagg purposes…
What scent are you rockin’ this fall/winter?…
so my f-bi has been updating me with this story all day.
our favorite ratch-eteer,
passed out at a concert he was having in new yawk last night.
of course there is video of his fall from grace…
Continue reading “August Turned Into Fall Real Quick”
happy labor day foxhole.
today has been a quiet day for me.
and putting my resume together.
2013 is almost over.
four more months until we go into 2014.
this year has been pretty blah for me.
spring was a disaster central.
summer was wack sauce.
i need to start thinking about a job.
im ready for my trump check.
i’m ready to make my #comeback.
i’m ready for my last first kiss.