it has been a quiet couple of days from the last entry.
i have been out if it.
i didn’t feel depressed tho.
my mind has been a total blank.
i looked at my laptop,
wanted to open it,
but had nothing to say.
it was like i had to deliver a speech and forgot all the words.
i’ve actually had a lot of things to write about,
foxmails to answer,
and cute wolves for review…
well that was before i was called in the office again friday.
yes the fuck shit for jamari fox continues…
it wasn’t for a write up this time,
but a simple reiteration.
“you cannot take another day off or be late for the rest of the year.
so if you are still with this company by 2016,
you will be eligible to use your sick/vacation days again…”
i think she wanted me to quit right there.
oh mr. green was there as well.
whatever she told him,
he has taken her side.
my boss is quite manipulative high key.
well i noticed he isn’t the same person i met.
he is different now.
i tried to speak to him,
but he pretty much ignored my requests.
“this job is the best worst job i’ve ever had.”
i have not gone crazy and it still blows chunks,
but working there has taught me so much.
HOW FUCK SHIT WORKS
i can say,
without a doubt,
it has upgraded me a mental level.
listen i realize no job will be perfect.
not when you have many different people with various personalities.
some can be manipulative.
some can even be on 110% of crazy.
others can be jackals simply waiting to rip off their masks.
its how you handle all of it.
corporate popularity will go out the window when people turn on you.
you go from being the one personally invited to happy hours,
to taking your lunch and eating it in the handicap stall.
its like fuckin’ high school.
it amazes me how the losers are now drunk off a little power.
no matter how good you are at your job,
tap dance to be “in”
be on the way “out”
someone higher up than you,
who is actually lower than you,
needs you to entertain them.
so dance i say!
it isn’t until you work for in your career that you’ll be appreciated.
it won’t happen as you slave daily for another.
so when they decide to let me go at this fuck shit job,
i know i will be okay with that.
i guess that’s the beauty of a blank mind.
it allows god and the universe to speak to you.