could you tell when the shift came?
you haven’t received it yet,
but it’s coming.
you’ll know because it comes after the bullshit.
it could be after taking a hard “L”,
an terrible break up,
or the death of someone you love.
i think i’m approach another shift in my life…
i woke up outta nowhere at 1am.
i went to bed at like 11:30pm.
i was having a nightmare,
but i can’t remember what it was about.
i opened my eyes,
but i was still asleep.
my room was really quiet and i just started to talk.
words started coming out of my mouth.
i remember asking for forgiveness,
while forgiving everyone who has hurt me.
a number of people were still haunting me,
even though we haven’t spoken in years.
after i was done talking,
i imagined closing a door and locking it right after.
i fell asleep shortly after.
the next morning,
i woke up feeling different within myself.
a good different.
as i was going to work,
i got a call from one of my aunts.
she was crying.
she wanted to update me on mi.
as i braced myself,
she told me:
Mi got baptized over the weekend
shocked TF outta me.
her aunt sent me pictures and videos from the baptism.
mi realized that everyone was done with her after her last stunt.
she has gained a ton of weight due to the meds,
but she looked happy.
her smile looked genuine.
i remembered that smile.
it was when she was truly happy “before“.
i’m still keeping my distance,
but i’m happy for her.
my co-worker was at my desk in the morning.
he randomly was talking to me about flowers.
i mentioned that i’d love to put flowers on my desk.
as i was leaving,
he told me wait a few minutes because he had something for me.
Why he bought flowers for me?
here they are:
i’ve never had someone buy me flowers before.
needless to say,
i’m extremely grateful for the unexpected gift.
i told him:
“Aww thank you!
I’ll put them on my desk!”
he looked at me and said:
those are for you!
Here is to a good week.”
so a shift is on the way!
i hope a good one is on the way for you as well.
lowkey: is the retrograde is over?