i didn’t do much today.
sleep was not an option last night either.
i ended up watching 2 movies,
starting showtimes around 12am:
girl on the train
“split” was eh.
i highly recommend “girl on the train”.
it kept my mind briefly off mi and her situation.
well today wasn’t any better…
“are you gonna go down there and see her?”
“you should have her come back to new yawk with you.”
“she is in a psych ward for God’s sake jamari.”
“mi burned so many bridges that she is out of luck now.”
those are all very valid questions and concerns from family members and friends.
i had family members who don’t even check on me blowing up my phone.
“hi this is insert banished one here,
your cousin is in the mental hospital down in florida…”
i’m still numb.
all i did today was catch up on last night’s sleep.
i went from being real active to simply wanting to sleep it all away.
i spoke to mi in this afternoon.
she wants to leave the mental facility in 3 days.
they are still set to 5 days.
“because now that i know what i am,
i can start to work on it.
plus i have a job and i’m in school.”
because of this,
you are now diagnosed as “bipolar”.
you shoulda thought of that before you tried to kill yourself also.
i didn’t say that,
but i did in nicer words say:
“sit yo ass down.”
she also mentioned wanting her phone to be on social media.
i ignored that.
i don’t know what is next to her.
once she leaves there,
she has to find her way.
she seems to have a lot of new couches becoming vacant for her.
i tried to provide it,
but she threw it all down the drain.
i’m concerned about her trying to commit suicide but…
I don’t particularly have any sympathy
is that wrong to font out loud?