i just got some fucked up news.
you ever got some news that made your whole world stop?
everything started moving in slow motion?
well that is how i felt when i got the call mi tried to kill herself…
it’s almost like i foreshadowed this.
i was speaking to my home vixen about “13 reasons why” right before.
there has been a lot of suicides happening as of late too.
i mentioned how i cried when the parents discovered the lead character’s dead body.
after i hang up,
i’m looking at different stories to start for the foxole,
when i see a florida number calling me.
i don’t know any other florida numbers than those already in my phone.
there was a feeling in my spirit that it was regarding mi.
this older vixen was on the other end and she told me everything.
she put mi on,
who sounded her regular self,
but she told me why she did it.
it all started when she smoked some weed the other day.
it activated darker thoughts than the usual.
that is when she realized she made a lot of mistakes and tried to end it.
whoever she is staying at called the ambulance.
mi is currently in the mental hospital over there.
she is sharing a room with 3 “crazy” people.
she wants to leave,
but they are gonna keep her for a few days.
i think it’s best she stays tbh.
i felt like such a hypocrite giving her a lecture.
it was like my own karma for when i was suicidal.
i had to tell her the same words others have had to told me.
during the convo,
i opted to be honest about my own struggles with suicide.
it was better than the:
“don’t kill yourself.
you have a lot to offer”
from everything she has admitted,
mi is very lost and needs to talk to someone.
i am in a state of shock right now.
i don’t know what else to say or font.
my body feels numb.
i’m scared for her tho.
this is what a brief convo i had with karaoke about it:
mi has burned so many bridges that no one gives af.
i hate that i do.
lowkey: one of my home vixens down there offered to go and check on her.
i gave the green light to that.