as i lay in bed in my stomach ailing stupor last night,
i was able to do a lot of thinking.
when you can’t sleep,
and you’re in tremendous pain,
it produces a lot of much needed “me” time.
i have been thinking of a mental vacation for awhile now…
i have been wanting to shut down my phone,
turn all my devices to silent,
and just staying quiet for a while.
as of right now,
no texting or phone calls.
i’m emotionally drained and in need of a break.
since i cannot take a vacation anytime soon,
i think the next best option is to remove myself from my current surroundings.
mentally and emotionally,
when i have stupid money like i’m destined,
i will own a place i go to get away.
it will be my “side den”.
i will take that time to focus on me an what’s important.
for a while,
i’ve been so focused on others,
that i began to lose myself in the process.
which is why i am now here and feeling the way i do.
since march starts tuesday,
i’ll take this as a “refreshing start to a new fox”.
i’ll do some reading,
and reaffirming the life i truly want.
i started reading up on meditation and affirmations.
i even started a new vision board with the help of a good friend.
i may go a week,
maybe even a month,
but i just want to separate myself from the outside world.
everyone needs to go invisible mode for a while.
i’d like to think of myself being here:
my mental health and sanity needs this.
the foxhole will be updated.
i plan on being emotionally open as i unwind.
lowkey: all artists vanish when they are creating/working.
they either live in the studio or in their trailer.
don’t be scared to just take some “me” time.
let people know,
but politely distance yourself for your well being.