now i’ve never been one to kiss ass.
it could be one of the reasons others say i’m so genuine.
i’ve seen so many of my black counterparts do it at different jobs.
as soon as anyone white walks in the room,
they start to put on a whole new persona.
before they was talking about “collard greens and chicken”…
…and suddenly they eat quiche and caviar.
it’s so weird to me.
just the day before we was talking about “queen sugar” or “empire”,
but when i see them in halls with the snow animals,
and i’ll get no response to a wave or head nod.
it’s like i’m the “jlo” to their “mariah”:
when that happens,
i make sure i don’t know you ever going forward.
what you see is definitely what you’ll get from me.
i don’t turn on or off nothing.
why try to be something i’m not?
i’ve lived a life trying to be accepted by everyone and i’m done.
something went down and i was partly blamed for it.
the funny part is,
i didn’t even know what was happening.
my new black co worker fucked up some important paper work.
instead of he take the “L”,
he tried to bring me into it.
if i didn’t have my receipts in emails,
i would have looked like a complete unprofessional ass.
i’ve been told by many that this particular co worker likes to lie.
he will lie on you just to make himself look good to the snow animals.
i see why my boss loves him.
my boss pretty much depends on him for everything.
he will still be there once we all get laid off.
his ass kissing worked for something.
needless to say,
the day was a complete mess and didn’t end very well.
i can’t wait until this job ends.
i was supposed to be laid off a while ago,
but i still keep on proving what a good worker i am.
we are all being used until it’s time to go.
at this point,
i want to leave the company because my trust is completely broken.
my “last” day will be the day i exhale.
as i was leaving to go home ysterday,
i saw the ceo wolf in the lobby.
his eyes lit up when he saw me.
he told me he has been busy,
but he hasn’t forgotten.
he has to turn his attention on his company right now.
he told me these next two months are an important one.
he also said he is looking for a role for me.
you can’t rush a new beginning.