“I’m done with Jamari.”
that was one of the lines being read back to me by a mutual friend.
the other was from a recent ex-friend who i had to bark on.
there has been tension stirring within our group and it exploded the other night.
tried being snarky with me,
and that led me to…
personally i have no regrets about it.
this same friend,
when he was getting lied on,
i had his back in the entire situation.
the moment we had an issue,
he is throwing me under the bus in passive aggressive fashion.
for the life of me,
i can’t understand why folks think they can treat me differently than others.
i learned something tho:
“Not everyone is down for you as you may think.”
when everything is good,
they are smiling in your face and riding by your side.
when things get bad,
and friendships/relationships are tested,
you will see exactly where you stand with people around you.
i didn’t feel sad about this particular friend.
for the three years we knew each other,
i didn’t really know him.
it wasn’t like my other friends who i’d be devastated about.
i’m at this place where i’ve suffered so much disappointment with people…
if you can’t respect me or my feelings,
you gotta go.
even if it’s a wolf and we break up,
i’m gonna be sad,
but then i’ll start the moving on process.
i bring more to these friendships/relationships than these ragamuffins ever will.
it’s not my loss; it’s theirs.