Hey, first let me say i admire you & your blog & tho i rarely comment i have been visiting these blog daily for about the last 5 years faithfully. Continue to shine, florish, inspire & walk into you purpose Jamari YOU are a lot of US.
So heres the thing i am a very discreet guy from a very small city with the chances of meeting someone of substance & on my caliber are slim to none. I have a good job, im establishing myself and elevating in life and in that aspect in life im content. However im in my early 30’s & im beginning to become a little lonely even though i don’t have a problem with being alone but i would be lying if i said that i didn’t want that happily ever after.
Last summer i felt as tho i may have had a little too much “fun” & it wasn’t getting me anywhere so i called myself taking a vow of celibacy until the new year. The stipulations were that i wasn’t gonna give up the goods until i found a nigga that was “worthy” of all that i have to give and i succeeded. Fast forward to last week i met this fine ass sexy young guy online & he persuaded me to come to his dorm after a few days of chatting. i obliged & he ended up giving me undoubtedly the best sex of my life thus far. i mean it was fucking mind-blowing straight out of the shit you would see on only fans & twitter (i fall into a trance evey time i have a flashback).
Like most of us i believed because the sex was good & we seemingly had a connection & he was really into it & me that it would lead to being a regular thing, he even asked me to come back over the next day, however that was last thursday it is now monday & i haven’t heard from him again. at 1st i felt on top of the world & i was very energetic being as tho he was very articulate, mild mannered, nice & fine af! all of the things that i had been missing from previous partners, the energy that was transferred was great until i realized i have been ghosted after sending a msg via text to no response. So then i check his profile & he has been active & clearly on to his next conquest (shocker right). After that revelation my high is now over & i feel as dumb and gullible as can be, like i waited all that time just to fall victim to another fuckboy. With me being an average built guy (i have a little bit of a gut but I’ve got a nice butt & i can dress but i still have a regular amount of self esteem & i would say im about a 7 in the face)
What do you suppose it could have been for him to pull this move on me?
i mean i am completely lost…
What should i do next?
i want to say thank you for showing me all that love.
i appreciate and thank you for joining me on this journey of mine.
when i was young and would hear black vixens talmbout males they dated,
i would often say to myself:
“Dating guys seem like stress.”
when i started dating other males,
i realized that 95% of males are wack af.
you know what i’ve been looking at?
i see so many gay/bi couples these days,
flexin’ their love online,
and i’m left wondering…
How did they end up like this?
did they start out fuckin’ and then fell into something?
were they talking heavy before they made it official?
or did it start from dysfunction and will end in disaster sooner than later?
i don’t know how to be with other males tbh.
i find males go hard with me when i act aloof.
the moment i open up tho it’s:
OMG JAMARI IS TRYING TO RETURN THE FAVOR!
when i’m kind and show i’m a decent fox,
i get treated like trash.
i just want some dick and happiness.
am i asking for a lot?
i’m sorry you got dealt a bad dick.
i guess you can say you got some exceptional strokes for 2020,
but i’m sure you wanted more.
we all want more.
i don’t think you did anything wrong but be present.
my first question is…
Did you guys establish what it was during the conversations?
don’t blame yourself because a male was acting like the typical male.
he obviously was looking for sex,
but played the game of “acting interested“.
that is one card males play when trying to get pussy or foxhole.
i say when speaking to new males,
always assume they ain’t shit and keep yourself guarded.
create a list in your head of what he has to do to bring down that guard.
if you meet them online,
assume they just want your foxhole and will bounce shortly after.
Don’t expect anything
if you do,
when it comes to dating other males,
you will get hurt.
don’t stop putting yourself out there because one male was trash tho.
Every trash ass male is a lesson to learn about yourself
dig deep and you’ll find it.
i hope this helps!
keep ya head up and keep me posted on your progress!