I have a confession to all my readers.
I know that when I say this,
it make cause some hate or even some judgment from the insecure.
It comes with the territory so here goes…
I am a sexy bottom and men are intimidated of me.
I am not “ugly sexy“.
One of those busted dudes who got WAY TOO MUCH self esteem
and look like something out of a septic tank.
Fat, ugly, bad sense of style but preaching about how good they look.
(they usually have the sexy dudes jumping through hoops)
Nah, not this bottom.
I am incog on here anyway so you are out of luck.
I have been told plenty of times like a broken record.
I always get that I should be a model or “I know you are not single”.
Girls are always liking and crushing on me (if I liked pussy, I’d prolly be a ho).
I always attract my few friend’s boyfriends or their crushes.
So much to the point they do not bring me around dudes they like.
Just the other night,
I was talking to this dude and he couldn’t stop going on about my looks and body.
It was almost nauseating because he had no convo besides my face.
I mean I am being real.
I have no reason to lie even though we have ALL been lied to before.
I am not.
I could be the sexiest bottom in the world but one fact still remains: I am single.
You would think that I would have men jumping off the walls to be with me
and that may be true but usually it is either a) sex or b) someone I am not attracted too.
My dating life is NOT perfect.
Not to mention that I am a pretty shy dude.
You would think that from my blog I am bold but in reality,
I am pretty quiet when it comes to dudes especially if I am attracted to them.
Dudes are always staring at me
(and they should because I am clearly not ugly)
but I get nervous and the moment passes.
I know people are reading this like:
but it is not my intention.
More so, my honest struggle.
Guys look at me and think I am snotty, mean, and whatever else they muster up.
Which is funny because I am the most down to earth dude you would ever meet.
It is not my fault I was raised a certain way
and I carry those morals with me in my daily life.
I have a nice sense of style so I come off almost unapproachable.
I wish I knew more dudes that were like me in this lifestyle.
BGC and A4A is clearly under my standards because the dudes on there are 90% sketchy.
I feel trapped and it gets me sometimes.
I wish I knew a discreet bottom who knew all the TOPS and I met them through him
because I am not doing shit on my own.
My love life would be ALOT more interesting.
I know a few bottoms like myself
who are attractive and they are single.
I know females who are gorgeous and sleeping alone.
Everyone always dream of being beautiful
but it comes with it’s own set of issues.
You actually intimidate and
those bold ugly mud ducks want to try their luck at locking you down.
Not happening shawty.
It sucks but it is what it is.
I want to break the cycle.
I feel by writing this and venting
I will get some kind of shift in my universe.