i have been feeling like the sun as of late.
you can see my glow from the smallest crevice.
it has been a different feeling being in my own fur lately.
i’m not in a place of “wanting” or “needing” anyone.
i’m just “here” in this moment of me.
the abundance of trash i had in my life is gone.
i’ve stopped being an emotionally hoarder.
i’ve been making my own rules.
my honest advice is…
you gotta get ugly before you glo up.
there was times i’d be crying for no reason.
i was hurt and felt drained.
i have this outlet to allow me to get it all out.
like i said,
i woke up one day and was completely over it.
it was like,
a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
things/others i once cared about didn’t/don’t matter to me anymore.
if you violate me,
i’m on a whole new wave.
i’m strong enough to say:
i don’t need to talk to them again.
making excuses for other’s bad behavior has got to end.
i desire a whole slew of new adventures and desires now.
i’m attracting better people who appreciate this new me in my life.
even if it all turns out horrible,
because nothing is ever perfect,
at least i’m in a stronger place to handle being in the fire again.
you have to get knocked down a few times to get there tho.
it’s okay to feel sad foxhole.
don’t try and force happiness for anyone else
don’t go into a “hoe phase” to prove a point that you’re over it
don’t do anything if all you want to do is stay in the house
this is your life.
you gotta do it for you.
it’s just a tough season(s).
it only last for as long as it takes for you to mature.
once you do…
lowkey: you know you in a better place when…
you forget certain people exist
you don’t care to stalk their ig, snap, or fb
aren’t eager to be on social media to flex
you can check someone for disrespecting you
making friends isn’t about “popularity”
things aren’t done out of loneliness or “keeping up with others”
the “good” in goodbye is understood