it’s no secret this holiday season has been tough for me.
my energy levels have been at an all time low.
i’ve been sleeping on and off all day.
My bawdy needed it
i been everywhere these last few weeks.
i did something different…
I ordered Chinese
no cooking as i usually do.
i wanted a real chill 2019 christmas expereince.
shrimp lo mein
lemon pepper chicken wings
shrimp egg roll
since i’ve gotten my appetite back,
because i haven’t been eating like that due to my anxiety,
i’ve been starting to keep down full meals again.
i have no complaints on how my christmas it went.
in a perfect forest,
things would be different,
but i’m going through sort of a test right now.
it was tough at first,
but i’m getting it together.
I hope you had a great Christmas day!
i pray it was filled with peace,
and the gifts you wanted.
i’m grateful for all of you for being there with me.
i font it every year,
but i’m so grateful for the blessing that is you.
lowkey: i felt megan thee stallion with this…
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It’s really hard for me to open up and be vulnerable most times but I know I’m not the only person dealing with these feelings around the holiday times. I see a lot of my hotties checking on me In my dm’s asking how I am and just showing me a lot of love and it really made me get emotional. I’m definitely still in a bad place when it comes to the topic of my mother and great grandmother but they raised me to be strong so I’m going to continue to be strong and make them proud of me. I know that pain is temporary and I’m going to continue to get better and grow into the woman my mother knew I could be ! Just remember to try to always be kind to people , check on them , uplift your loved ones because you never know what people are going through internally.
some don’t realize how hard the holiday season can be for others.