Category: A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI
in the middle is where i thought i liked it
i always felt like i’m in the middle ground of life.
i try to stay there because it feels the most balanced,
but i often feel the most underappreciated as well...
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if you treated them like their ex, they would laid out the red carpet for you (life)
i’ve been thinking a lot about my life as of late.
where i went wrong with the jackals that i thought were in my corner.
it’s a real eye-opener when you wake up from the slumber of stupidity.
the more i apologized for reacting to their bad behavior,
the more it was used against me.
you think to yourself:
“Damn…
If I knew then,
what I knew now,
I would have had insert person here wrapped around my entire finger.”
many of those kind of people were doormats to bigger demons than them.
they met their match with someone else who didn’t tolerate their shit.
this following tweet really spoke to me today…
accountability | november 1st, 2021
i’ve been feeling creatively retarded these last few days.
my mind has been on overdrive with everything i need to do.
i barely sleep because i’m constantly thinking of what’s next.
i’ve been trying to remember what dr. turner taught me.
on days that i have no creative energy,
i take a day(s) to figure things out.
today,
i started my new journey in finding another therapist…
we ended it today.
today is the last time we would be meeting up.
i’ve been sad about it for the last few weeks,
but it would be selfish of me to try to hold onto someone who needed to go.
i didn’t cry,
but i felt this joy with the idea of this new me getting back into the world.
Jamari Fox is back on the market.
he spoke so highly of me before we officially ended it…
when did i take the wrong turn towards the upside-down place? (stranger things)
i must have entered the upside-down place ala stranger things.
i’m waiting for the call of love-making from of a big ass monster to emit in the background.
…but i guess a fly was sent to torment me in the meantime.
there is a fly in my apartment that is determined to drive me crazier than i been feeling.
i don’t know what it is about this week or the last month,
but shit has been turned upside down for me.
it has been legit stranger things since this merucry retrograde.
so much shit has been lowkey poppin’ off irl just this week alone.
Broke my Studio Beats
My AirPod Pros aren’t working
My sister is on the highway to hell
Money, Money, (Low) Money
My therapist retires next week
Motivation is at an all-time low
if it ain’t one thing,
it’s the next.
ig is the next on my “wtf” this morning…
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happy birthday to my grandmother
growing up,
my grandmother was one of the important figures in my life.
when my mother was running wild in the forests of barbados,
it was my grandmother who made the sacrifice to take care of me as a baby.
i stayed at her spot during the week and saw my mother on weekends.
although her methods of parenting were very abusive…
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