i’m scared of the doctors.
my parents dying of cancers put that fear in me.
i’ve went and had physicals,
but i was shook waiting for the results.
when i had that hiv scare a few years back,
i was a hot ass mess when it came to getting tested.
thank God it came back clean.
lately,
i haven’t been myself…

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“When last have you taken a Mental Health Day?”

karaoke and i got into it over that question this morning.
my delivery may have been out of whack tho.
i have been feeling under the weather and a tad moody.
i believe everyone should take a mental health day once or twice a month.
if that’s pushing it,
once every other month.

mental health day (n)…

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i did it with work wolf.
i did it with many others i once knew.
it was the last card i pulled in hopes to see where we stood.
i figured it would save me when i felt i was gonna crash.
nope.
i still maintained the most injuries in the end.
it makes me cringe when i think about it…

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so i just got two slices from my favorite dollar pizza spot in the city.
that was going to be dinner.
i’m standing at the corner,
contemplating if i should take an uber to the crib.

“28.90”

that’s for a uber pool.
super negative.
as i’m about to talk to the train station,
i see this black wolf walking in my direction.
he was walking rather quick,
but i recognized him almost immediately.
he’s someone i’ve fonted about many times...

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we all have to grow up sometime.
me tho?
nah.
ya know,
being a gay fox in this forest,
i live in a little bubble.
i’m so focused on getting my own life together,
all the straights i use to know have a cub(s) now.
i was just in the store,
trying to pick out something to eat.
i’m not in the mood to cook so a tv dinner is on the forecast.
out my right eye,
i see someone waving me down.
when i look,
with full “wtf is this?“…

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last night,
i was in my feelings (no drake) and tweeted:

“i can kinda see why people kill themselves because of social media”

one can lose themselves trying to get status on instagram.
if you aren’t witty enough for tweeting,
you’re sent to the twitter graveyard.
for the ones we admire,
it comes so easy to them.
it left me to wonder…

What does a healthy social media life look like?

is it…

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