i always asked God to allow me to be attractive.
many told me i was attractive,
but i never believed it.
i always saw my flaws in hd eyes.
something was always wrong with my face.
if it wasn’t acne,
it was something else.
my comparing game was strong too.
everyone seemed so perfect.
it stopped me from truly living my best life.
well i was having a discussion with the pretty vixen today.
somehow we got on the topic and she texted this…
“you have this strange idea of what being attractive is…”
i figured if you are attractive,
even as a gay male,
those in the forests will try to talk to you.
they would throw hints and clues they are interested.
it all started when i was told how true dl wolves got the attention of foxes.
strong eye contact and obvious signs.
if he didn’t look in your direction,
that means you weren’t all that cute.
i will also admit i looked at how attractive vixens were treated as well.
“remember when you went up to get the popcorn?”
she was talking about the night at the film festival.
“i watched that whole exchange between that dude and you.
you make guys anxious.
in your head,
you are wondering why they aren’t looking at you directly.
the dude behind the counter was checking you out,
but once you spoke to him,
he got very nervous…”
now the crazy part is,
i wasn’t looking at him like that.
“omg how can i change that?”
“welcome to the world of being attractive!
just because you are,
doesn’t mean everyone is going to drop at their feet to talk to you,
especially the ones you really want to talk to.
has anyone in here approached me?”
i notice wolves are very intimidated by the pretty vixen as well.
“what do you do when you see someone cute coming in your direction?”
i often look away,
i get nervous and try not to make eye contact.
there are times i’d look at my phone or in another direction…
after that conversation,
i started to look at things differently.
i base attraction on the wrong things.
unless you are a good looking straight wolf,
it is going to be hard.
even he doesn’t get approached either.
he has to control the narrative and chase who he wants.
the ones on ig are shirtless so they set up the bait.
they choose who they want.
most look intimidating af online…
i’m beginning to see why they always complaining they single offline too.
it might be a different story than what we think.
so i had to wonder…
Is being attractive really not what it’s cracked up to be?
i’d imagine if they were regula degulas,
it would be hard to find a date if it were beyonce or rihanna too.