this whole week has been trying for me.
the fire was at an all time high.
a lot of other people as well.
i have been keeping up a good front.
too bad my insides didn’t match.
this week kind of made me give up on the good of people.
yesterday it all came full circle.
it really made me see people for who they really are.
potential jackals and hyenas plotting to destroy you…
i was forced to watch people in my department,
ones who had little involvement in this project i worked on,
take all the credit for themselves.
it lead one of them getting a promotion.
i busted my ass,
worked long hours,
and dealt with unprofessional hood boogers doing this.
well they literally took my ideas and waited to use it for themselves.
i can honestly say i feel used.
i watched them smile in my face,
all the while,
circling around like the true jackals that they are.
i turned my back for one second and 3 knives were in it.
i had to take the “L”,
but needless to say,
i learned a valuable lesson,
even tho i spoke up,
no one took me seriously.
it made me feel like no one takes me seriously.
i’m sure its the anger speaking right now.
forgive me to those who do.
i don’t know what else to say.
i know this whole thing magnified where i’m at in the world.
my place amongst society.
in my career.
its funny how shit like this makes everything highlighted.
how treacherous the path upward really is.
how hyenas and jackals take many forms.
how it makes you start to show your own claws and fight back.
this situation won’t make me bitter tho.
it just started forming a colder beast.