i can literally hear my mother in my ear.
so i hate feeling stupid.
i mean,
we all don’t like feeling stupid.
mine comes from years of mental abuse.
so i OD in working hard so i can master something.
in some cases,
it worked wonders.
others,
like my new gig,
it is causing me to fuck up…
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today was a long day.
i’m so tired and low on energy.
one co worker decided to call out.
another left early in the afternoon.
it was just me,
one other coworker,
and a deadline.
when i say i was legit tite?
bad enough,
i didn’t see the new mailroom wolf at all today.
grr.
besides all that,
i had a bigger hunt going on.

GET IN TOUCH WITH THAT CEO

as a fox…
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foxhole.
i’m in so much pain.
i feel like ima cry…
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oprah is,
like,
my spiritual auntie.
i would love to meet her one day.
i go to her when i need some kind of spiritual enlightenment.
well i saw this video on “forgiveness”,
but i didn’t understand it.
i was hoping the foxhole could help me…
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FOXMAIL

Hello Jamari

I am a frequent visitor and supporter of your blog. Reading your blog daily allows me to escape the stressors that life presents. In addition to the great eye candy, and different perspectives from the foxxes and wolves.

I am in my mid twenties and one major insecurity and depressing thoughts about my lack of endowment. Often times it makes me feel less than a man. In addition to being afraid to talk to guys or date with the fear of rejection for not measuring up to large standards. I have gotten accustomed to warring very baggy clothes to hide my small bulge. However as a recent college grad I will be starting a new office job soon and will have to be in business casual attire.

Do you have any advice on the type of style of pants and underwear that I should purchase , that will not make my shortcomings so apparent. Or perhaps enhance it comfortably.

Fyi I am blessed with a large back side so the rear portion of my pants fills out nicely. But I guess beggars can’t be choosey.

Thanks for reading

MY ANSWER…

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FOXMAIL

Dear Jamari,

First and foremost I just want to let you know that I love your daily blogs. They’re on my top 5 “do to” lists whenever I decide to log on my laptop every morning. It’s nice to have a little haven where we can all relate in some way as black men in the LGBT community.

This is going to be a bit of a ride so buckled up..

Now here is the thing.. I am a 19 year old student and I currently live with my parents. They know I’m gay since I came out to them a year ago but they weren’t too pleased about it (duh) so ever since that day they pretty much brushed it under the rug and never spoke about it ever since. My father took it better than my mother, he thinks it’s a phase and my mother just walked out the room when I came out because she couldn’t take it. Nothing bad happened though, no insults/beatings etc. They just couldn’t wrap their heads around it so it got awkward. My brothers & sister took it well though. Needless to say I feel lost when it comes to having guidance being a black gay man. I feel like had I had a mentor or advice given to me while I was dealing with this then I wouldn’t have made a lot of the mistakes that I’ve made. Especially in my mid-teens.

Anyways, my supervisor at my retail job decided to end my contract a few days before Christmas so as you know I was really beat up about it. Needless to say a modelling agent who scouted me weeks before that just informed me that I got signed to my current modelling agency. However after a month in, I still haven’t gotten any talks about payments for the work that I did so I feel like I was sold a dream. So I don’t have much faith in it anymore..

So here comes to juicy part, I signed up to this site for Sugar Daddies/Babies called “Seeking Arrangement” all out of boredom and curiosity. I am 6’3, bronze complexion, have an athletic build & have a really chiseled bone structure. Now a couple guys have hit me up, and one guy who flew in my city yesterday to visit for business wants me to go on a date with him tomorrow. He let me know that as a part of our arrangement that physical intimacy will definitely have to happen at some point if I want to keep this arrangement going. This guy has a networth of more than $620,000. His profile stated that his networth was $6 mill. I’ll take that with a grain of salt though. He is average looking and he really wants to spoil me.

Here is the issue, I haven’t been paid in a while and I am in real need of quick money. I’m tired of asking my parents for money when I know they have to provide for my siblings too. I have needs. But there is a side of me that feels so grim for even going along with this. I feel like I was blessed with a life where I don’t need to do it and I feel lowkey immoral for it too. I was damn near depressed in class all day today thinking about it. I feel like I’ll be scarred for life if I have sex for money. Because that pretty much what having a Sugar Daddy is all about. But in the other side of my mind I was thinking about all the money that I could get.. I’m just so torn at the moment.

Any insight? Please

MY ANSWER…

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