this didn’t help anyone’s anxietyin new yawk…
there i was,
engaged in the second season of ozark,
while under my covers when i heard about the mass shooting on the mta.
it’s like i’m at a point where i’m not shocked anymore.
i legit embarrassed myself today.
even though i was with one of my amazing friends,
i don’t think i’m ready to be “out there” yet. hunterhit me up and asked me what i was doing today.
he hasn’t seen me in a minute so we went to lunch. carmines.
i told him i wanted pasta. we were having a great time and conversation when…
i can come off really guardedin person.
it’s nerves tbh.
it is all nervous energy in how i come off to other people.
when alcohol is in me,
my inhibitions can help me relax but i don’t want to become an alcoholic.
weed has only made me paranoid af. honestly…
this morning, i woke up morning feeling oddly relaxed.
as of late,
that has been happening.
usually i wake up with a ton of anxiety,
but it felt like something was lifted off my spirit. i been meditating every day, which has been helping, but ever since i started taking… Continue reading “getting high without getting high (anxiety)”
it started getting bad like a few weeks ago.
i’ve been playing it off pretty well.
i’m still dressing fly,
and my skin has never looked better,
but i’ve been dealing with a lot deep down inside.
it’s easy to wear a mask when you’re feeling like shit underneath. bad enough, i’ve been “sick” af too…