i wrote the title last and literally busted out in a tears.
this was absolutely painful for me to write this morning.
my heart is broken.
he made me start this website.
he even helped me come up with the name.
he knew i loved athletes,
loved to write my feelings,
and had so much to say.
i was terrified to do it at first,
but without him pushing me to jump,
i wouldn’t have done this without him.
i’m glad i listened.
he always said to me:
“jamari stop being so scared.
just do it.
go with the flow.”
he had so much faith.
i admired him for that.
i have replayed everything we have spoken about throughout these years.
he was someone who knew me.
when i was sad,
what made me happy.
he saw me for me.
he could break me down and be on point.
he always saw that light within me that i never saw within myself.
“the world needs to know the you i know.
they would love you so much as i do.”
star fox passed away.
he was taken from me so tragically.
i’m still in shock.
i think i have no more tears,
yet i find more when i see his face.
he was someone that i shared many of his adventures on here.
i can’t believe i am even writing this entry about my friend today.
the last one i will ever write.
he was a brother to me.
now he is gone and i don’t know what to do with myself.
i miss him already.
i didn’t even get to say good bye.
i don’t think i will ever meet anyone in this lifestyle like him.
that’s what hurt me the most about this.
he always encouraged me to be as fearless as he was.
let go and go with the flow.
when someone did me wrong or hurt my feelings,
he told me to forgive them and let god handle it.
he was my safety net in this lifestyle.
hell, life in general.
as far as i’m concerned,
the “friendship” bar is now set really high.
i wrote this entry in twenty different ways.
crying each time i did.
i think i feel satisfied with this one.
there’s not much left to say but:
“thank you for being my rock,
and my true best friend.
hell someone i would call a brother.
i will continue to do this for you.
i love you so much and will miss you tremendously.
please stay within my heart.”
rip star fox.