i am good looking.
my life is blossoming in total perfection.
i am the master of my life.
i deserve the very best sex in my life.
i am now attracting loving, satisfying relationships into my life.
i am healthy and beautiful.
the light within me is creating miracles.
god lives within me and manifests in the world through me.
i have the infinite creative power of the god within me.
people tell me you need to change your self talk to co create your life.
well what if you don’t believe it?
i know that isn’t the best question to ask,
but its a real one.
i’d rather not pretend with the foxhole.
they say if you say it,
then you will start to believe it.
when you are looking in the mirror then you get to affirming
when you are feeling your best then get to affirming
when you have a notebook then you should be writing down your affirming
…and i do that and things go well.
why am i not believing it?
am i broken?
its like something happens and then i’m back to my old speaking habit.
i’m so stupid.
smart people don’t do dumb shit like this.
i will never get a wolf like that.
i’m aren’t attractive which is why i’m single.
i’m stuck at this job.
i’m not going to live my dreams.
i wish i was dead.
…which makes me wonder if i’m doing this all wrong?
am i that mentally fucked up that i can’t even talk to myself good?
or remain talking good when things are absolute shit?
yet i speak so highly about everyone else.
everyone comes to me when they want a self esteem boost.
i have realized i’m extremely hard on myself.
which is weird because i don’t allow others to disrespect me.
everyone else thinks i’m so amazing.
i’m scared because i feel like i’m never going to find that “amazing person”.
i feel i have to pretend through life to be politically correct.
you know its never good when you show you have problems.
i’m a fuckin’ human social media account.
how do you clear your mind?
how do you stop a negative self talk?
how do you focus on you 110% and no one else?
think know i’ve been self sabotaging my own life with my word vomit.
that is the honest truth.
lowkey: i think ima have to become extremely selfish.
including my own happiness,
is all about me.
is that wrong?
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