i have a couple questions and there are not meant to be insulting.
have you ever looked in the mirror and thought you were “ugly”?
have you looked in the mirror and one flaw meant the end of the world?
and have you ever compared yourself to other people?
you don’t need to feel embarrassed.
i’m not going to judge you.
its just me and you.
trust a lot of us have felt that way once or twice in our lives.
many people no matter how:
how much money they have
getting good pussy/ass/pipe on the regular
…feel that way every single day.
well you may suffer from “body dysmorphic disorder” and not even realize it.
i’ll tell you what that is…
i use to think i was ugly.
i use to spend my days comparing myself to other wolves and foxes.
living in this life and feeling ugly can be a big “no no” for your social life.
my friends would tell me otherwise,
and wolves/vixens wanted to be/fuck with me,
but i wouldn’t believe anything they said.
matter a fact,
i would often challenge it.
i would often also sabotage relationships with wolves because of my insecurities.
i can admit it.
it got actually so bad that i wanted to get plastic surgery.
i wanted to become this “perfect” fox looks wise,
not so much light skin,
but in my head what i thought being attractive was.
removing and changing things that others actually found my beauty in.
well a few years ago,
i saw a bulletin for a free case study about how we view ourselves.
i went in and they made me take this long test.
i passed and was diagnosed with having body dysmorphic disorder.
body dysmorphic disorder – its when you see a flaw in your appearance that is minor or imagined.
you think whatever it is so bad that you think others will judge you on it.
you also obsess constantly over how you look.
it gets to the point that people seek out plastic surgery,
or excessively excerise to try and fix the flaw that you see.
sadly you are never satisfied so you will go hard in the gym.
you will break your back buying products and even make up.
the study lasted a good 3 or 4 months.
it was an eye opening experience that really helped.
i’m not 100%,
but i will say that i am pass the half way mark.
you will be surprised how many people have this.
many people in the life are suffering from it.
they just don’t know.
when you have it,
you always try and present yourself in the best possible light.
you become a slave to compliments.
a slave to finding random men to fuck.
that becomes your defense and excuse in arguments.
“well i’m cute because other people find me cute.
people always blowing up my messages on jackd.
you ugly because you got no one!”
we all know those types.
its not something you can tell someone upfront,
but when you start talking with them,
they will start revealing it little by little.
it can be one of the reasons why people lie on social media.
why they use “smoother” tools to hide flaws in their pictures.
its why we think they are perfect when in actuality,
they are silently suffering to make us believe they are perfect.
i was thinking about body dysmorphic disorder last night.
everyone loves to show their best self in selfies or after work out shots.
how many of those same people have body dysmorphic disorder?
is the gym keeping them sane?
they claim they are working out for “nutrition”,
but that is far from the case.
is getting a ton of likes/comments helping boost temporary self esteem?
why many of them are constantly single?
you see the posts about this perfect equally fit person,
but in reality,
they end up getting with some regular who helps stroke their ego.
i always say that you can work out all you want,
get this nice body,
but it will never change whats happening on the inside.
as you are working on your outer appearance,
you should also be working on your inner as well.
nothing worse than meeting the wolf of your dreams,
with the body you fantasize about,
and he is not what you expected with his personality.
having to constantly validate him and his bad sex everyday.
i prefer a wolf who doesn’t realize how attractive he is,
than one who is hiding behind arrogance and completely insecure.
no fox has time for that.
and i know people will read this and say:
“NO YOU SHOULDN’T FEEL THIS WAY!
YOU ARE A GROWN MAN WHO SHOULD FEEL GOOD!
ITS WEAK TO FEEL LIKE THIS!”
well guess what?
thats the fuckin’ reason why people are fucked up nowadays.
why some of them think “light skin”is the right skin”.
people like you,
and family members,
telling them its not okay to feel the way they do.
why people strive for perfectionism and are failing miserably.
why people are at the gym all day and going under the knife.
its because of people like YOU.