i decided to buy work wolf breakfast this morning.
something inside told me to do it.
it was like an urge in my spirit.
i listened to it.
so i went and picked up a breakfast sandwich and some orange juice.
when i got up to work,
he was standing outside the building.
i don’t know if he was doing it purposely,
but when he saw me,
his face instantly lit up…
“i got you something.”
his face lit up even more when i handed him the bag of food.
the day went by like any regular day.
he texted me on and off.
he took a while to respond at some periods.
why i even went to “he’s probably texting liar liar” was beyond me.
i did dismiss the thought faster than before.
he also didn’t even mention coming over saturday.
when we were leaving,
he was talking about his 4th of july plans.
i told him he needs to be dressed and lookin’ like “good dick”.
“i’m already good dick.” he responded,
while looking away and smiling.
i’ll be saying that term to him from now on.
i even tried to see if i could touch him.
i wiped something off his cheek.
he didn’t hesitate.
that could mean anything tho so i tried not to look into that.
other than that,
he was extremely nonchalant about everything today.
it was confusing.
i didn’t let my anxieties and doubts get the best of me.
it wasn’t easy,
but i let him initiate everything as usual.
even tho i wanted to,
i had to relax and let him do his thing.
i made sure i didn’t respond as fast to his texts.
he wants to chill somewhere tomorrow.
i told him i’m down.
i’m going to stick with this “friend” thing.
i wrote that out loud.
everyone was right on that.
its not easy because he is the wolf i want.
he needs to be the one to make a move tho.
i’ll play the “kinda” dumb fox until that happens.