so i watched the “wicked for good” trailer and bawled.

the young me,
that frowned every time karaoke played the broadway soundtrack for the original “wicked”,
would judged at the current me.
tbh:

i hate i didn’t get into wicked sooner.

back then,
i was so concerned with fitting into spaces that never welcomed me,
i really missed a story that reflected my life back to me.

it’s funny how the things we react when we are ashamed of ourselves,
eventually come back to heal or teach us a lesson.

when i watched the first “wicked” movie last year,
i didn’t expect to relate to “the green one” so deeply…

we don’t realize other people are going through their own shit too.
i am so in my head about this housing shit,
i was brought back down to earth really quick.
now this doesn’t mean my issue isn’t stressful,
but when i talk/font to others,
i’ve been shown they are stressed TF out too.
one of my home vixens got to chatting last week.
i told her shit has been rough without going into too much detail.
so she responded that she….

what an F-BI sent me.
how many open relationships have we watched crumble?
i always fonted it an insult for anyone to suggest being in an open relationship.
it always came off as job hunting while still employed.

peep the Foxhole “hypothetical but not really” scene:

lets font that you are one of 3 males.
you end up dating one so this becomes a threesome,
sans you not having sex with the third wheel and thinking they’re your friend.
well unfortunately,
third wheel and your partner allegedly start fuckin’ around while denying it.
social media calls it out but the denial is still there.
jamari fox calls it out but third wheel responds it’s all lies.
come to find out,
it wasn’t lies and it was actually happening.
“news at 11”.
third wheel and your ex are a thing.
traveling,
making content,
and basically doing all to show they are the new “it” couple.
a year later,
the break up happens and it’s messy.

remember when i posted about ( x these three folks )?
big daddy aka king0f(broken)hearts,
otule,
and lxshxwn.
that same F-BI sent me an ironic and alleged update and well…

listennnnnnn….

i’ve come to two conclusions about that assassination.
it has been sitting on my spirit for a while now.
i like to look deep into things when i’m connecting dots.
so check it,
one…

one huge thing i am starting to learned from pineapples,
especially when you are softer and warmer than other males is…

i’ve been thinking a lot about lil nas x tbh.
it made me realize just how awful the entertainment industry is.
it also made me think about each role someone assumes:

when you play the role of troll,
people don’t know when you are serious or not.

tbh,
so many people are breaking and killing themselves for their 15 minutes,
but once they get that first hit…