you tough,
right?
you take no shit,
will fight anyone without an hesitation,
and looked at as “the person you don’t play with“.
you will shade and read someone to a flawless victory.
the problem is that all changes when “it” came around.
what is “it”?

HIS GOOD DICK

… was it.
one of my home vixens was telling me a story about her friend…

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I walked out from my bedroom into my living room and the writing was on the wall.
no seriously,
Mi had taken a permanent marker and written nasty messages all over my walls.
How she got into my apartment was a mystery to me.
I know she gave back all her keys to me,
but did she make a spare?

I felt extremely horny for him.
I haven’t thought about him in quite a while.
Ever since he left me alone to tend to his relationship,
I decided it was best for me to move on.
For whatever reason,
the thought of him woke me up outta my sleep.
I felt this strong sexual energy take over me that I could not ignore.
At 430am,
I’m jacking myself off stupid with thoughts of him inside me.

i did not sleep last night.
i was having nightmares and filled with anxiety.
before i went to bed,
i was reading arguments about the jab from both sides.
i was wrapped up in natural happiness i never felt before a few weeks ago.
i had to wake up early to call unemployment today,
but of course,
i got the runaround and drop from them.
today,
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i told myself that i wasn’t gonna become “one of those people”.
someone who is looking down on friends because they choose not be get jabbed.
as someone who lost one of his best friends so suddenly,
i overly-care about the people i’ve labeled “friends”.

Not to be confused the assholes who have left my life because they were terrible friends.

the ones who shouldn’t even have friends because they fumble the bag consistently.

i’m referring to the genuine friends that are in my tribe.
i know we won’t agree on everything,
but i knew the “jabbed vs un-jabbed” life we are living would make us take sides.
so one of my best friends is anti-jabber.
she agrees with the conspiracies and all of that.
she sent me that she was at a rally over the covid mandates in new yawk.
they are banning the un-jabbed from gyms,
restaurants,
ball games,
and concerts starting next week.
you know folks out here are angry…

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i was really calm to get a good jabbin yesterday.
i did feel a sense of fear when i was the grown-ass father crying before he got jabbed,
but i had a sense that he was afraid of needles than the actual jab itself.
i ended up dressing in a nice “bbq” kind of outfit to get jabbed.
i mean…

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this last week was a little better than the last.
i felt like The Universe was spreading its cheeks and taking a dump in my cereal for the fun of it.
negatives first…

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for a while,
i was holding out on getting the jab.
i wasn’t an anti-jabbed civilian who never wanted to get it,
but i had a lot of questions that weren’t getting answered.
i was actually waiting for it to be fda approved.
even though i wasn’t jabbed,
i was on my p&qs.

Mask on
Social distancing
Staying away from large crowds
“Don’t even look at me“

that was all good until new yawk dropped this bomb on the city…

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