Category: A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI
being built (again)
laying on my couch in the dark,
i stare up at the ceiling as the street lights peek through the drapes.
it’s around 2 am and i can’t fall asleep.
my thoughts continuously keep me up at night.
the fears and worries have become my personal freddy kreuger.
the only sound coming from my apartment is the ticking of the clock.
it sounds like a bomb almost.
Tick.
Tick.
Tick.
mentally and emotionally,
thats how i’ve been feeling.
i have been waiting for the big explosion.
it feels like i’ve fallen off from myself and my life…
ima do… vent about my family
yesterday,
as i was doing my vocals,
the urge to just vent came over me.
i have been having some issues weighing on me about my family.
so i took it to the vocal docket.
this week’s podcast…
watch how joe budden checks a fool asking about his alleged bisexuality
two of my biggest fears growing up:
People looking at me when I walked into a room
People asking, assuming, or talking about me being gay
both things usually synergized with each other.
people have this obsession with others’ sexuality.
some are bold af too!
they’ll literally ask you if you’re gay in front of people.
like,
don’t even pull you to the side to ask.
some do use it as a way to embarrass someone.
I hate when loudmouth gays do it.
even though joe budden has his problematic moments,
i enjoyed how he handled a jackal trying to embarrass him.
mark hoffa wanted joey to clarify his alleged bisexuality.
this is how he ended up checking mark hoffa…
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who hurt YOU?
who were you before you got hurt?
who were you before you got molested by your uncle?
who were you before you were stabbed in the back by your “best friend”?
who were you before you got cheated on by the “love of your life”?
who were you before you got HIV by that hyena who said he was clean?
we all were “someone” before another someone or something changed us.
i was “someone” too…
YOU ARE STILL THE BADDEST EVEN IF HE DON’T WANT YOU NO MORE
He broke your heart.
He broke you.
Now he is in another situation on social media.
They look happy.
You looked happy once upon a time with him too.
So seeing them both,
it has annihilated your self-esteem and worth.
that was me yesterday.
it rocked my world because i was expecting the opposite.
i was expecting him to fuck up another person’s life.
nope.
this one seems different.
so my inner control panel wanted to revert to “old jamari“.
i wanted to lay around,
think about why i’m not worth it,
and compare myself to him(and everyone).
i was about to put on sad music to be an emotional wreck but…
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EPISODE 3 & 4 OF IMA DO ME DROPS NOW
last week,
i uploaded two solo podcasts to soundcloud and the feedback was insane.
i want to thank everyone who reached out with such positive words.
this is episodes 3 and 4…
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