*This is what i wrote in my private journal.
It’s been reworded for the foxhole tho.
I’m just writing my feelings out right now.
vent incoming.

i saw ^that quote earlier and it stuck with me.
“what if it all works out?”
how do you truly entertain a thought when you feel things won’t work out?
like,
we are all master creators.
we have made magic with just our thoughts and having faith.
i got to thinking tho and…

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i know you are angry at how you’ve been treated.
you’ve been holding that hurt in for a long time.
i’m angry too because it has happened to me countless time.
you know what bugs me?

People stood by as you were treated like shit and did nothing.
No one defended you or supported you.

it fuckin’ sucks.
this entry goes out to those who…

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when i first got to this country,
i was picked on pretty badly at my first school.
my mother enrolled me in a private catholic school.
she thought it would be better than being at a public school.

BOY WAS SHE WRONG.

i was jumped,
spit on,
and beat up for simply existing.
i was called rubber lips and made fun of for my features,
which made me hate my lips and my nose.
don’t even get me started on being called a sissy.
i wasn’t picked on for being “white”,
but i was different than my other classmates.
my accent was pretty thick and i cried easily.
even though it was a majority white school…

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i was talking to someone about “the devil’s wear prada” the other day.
meryl streep portrayed miranda priestly so iconically.
my friend said:

“I loved the movie and hate it at the same time.
The movie portrays everything wrong with corporate America.”

…and thats when i was slapped into reality.
when i sat down and really thought about it…
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i’m not the popular one.
i’m not the onlyfans star.
i’m not the muscled-down fantasy for the gays hopes takes dick.
i’m not the one who gets his dick sucked.
by that,
i mean i’m not the one that people promote shamelessly.
i’m often ignored and wonder if i’m enough.
i’m not the one who people think of first for invites or vip spots.
it would fuck with me real heavy.
i thought about it like this…

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i remember the first time i ever ate mcdonald’s.
it was when my mother brought me to disney world as a kid.
when i got my first happy meal toy,
i was so fascinated.

Burger,
Fries,
Drink AND A TOY?!

it felt like i was being rewarded for eating.
over the years,
i’ve felt like mcdonald’s has changed.

Maybe I have changed?

i can’t eat mcdonald’s nowadays without my stomach being violated.
last time i ate mickey dees,
which was many years ago,
i was shitting my brains out in the old navy bathroom on 34th street.
when i go on a road trip,
i’m gotta find a new spot to eat since fast food is all down the highways.
i went down the rabbit hole of watching videos from food insider yesterday.
they were comparing fast food in other countries vs here in the US…

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