i think a lot of people lost their spark around 2020.

for me,
it started the first week of 2020.
getting let go from my last job the way i did,
along with the whole “ww3” situation…

i took this screenshot today of my bank account today.
i paid some bills,
the person i stay with hit me with hidden surcharges (which fuckin’ annoys me tbh)…

…and i was left with 1.00.
i was annoyed at first but then i felt a wave of “fuck it“.
i didn’t font this entry for sympathy or for shock value,
but for honesty.
this is the part many people don’t show us…

it’s giving:

“City Fox moves to suburbs and gets job at local bar.
while working at local bar,
he mingles with the locals but one suburbia Wolf catches his eye.
while working at the bar,
City Fox and Suburbia Wolf meet and during some wacky adventures,
mishaps,
and a little tom foolery,
they end up falling in love and they live happily ever after.”

season 27 is City Fox and Suburbia Wolf move in together.
that causes some more wacky adventures,
mishaps,
and a little tom foolery as well.

i can dream in all the delulu,
can i?
seriously tho,
after much searching and stressing…

one of my wolf friends was telling me a few days ago:

“every time i have sex with my girl,
she wants it rough and i leave it (her vixen parts) swollen.
her legs are shaking and she can’t even get up off the bed.”

…and tbh,
it was the sexiest thing i heard in quite some time.
the visual in my head turned me on heavy.
the interesting part is that outside of rough sex…

i saw ^that online that felt like my brain on paper.
i’d like to add on:

The Foxhole.
being social.
rihanna’s social media presence.
the person i stay with.
the person i stay with.
THE PERSON I STAY WITH.
my own space.
my own space.
MY OWN SPACE.

…and i’m sure there are more in the reserves.
everything in my head is talking at once,
and it made me realize something…

getting on me for something and then turning around and doing the exact same thing?

that is one of my biggest pet peeves when to comes to anyone.
where i’m staying currently has been a complete mind fuck.
i had to wonder of i’m in a jordan peele or A24 production and didn’t realize it.
it’s one thing after the next,
to the point where i’ve started to wonder…

is this actually more mentally and emotionally taxing than what i left in new yawk?

the latest was what really made me back TF up…