its quiet without her today.
i hate it.

two things i learned about puppies is they’re like kids.
ya’ll know i don’t want no kids,
but this situation taught me that i’d happily raise a dog.
the last thing i learned:

i refuse to foster an animal ever again.

def not built ford tough for it.
i am an animal person and i get attached quick.
her new family picked her up on saturday and i was DEVASTATED.
it didn’t help that when they put the new collar and leash on her…

i legit cried this morning.
i was so embarrassed.
ugh.

woke up early,
had a good gym session,
and took a long walk to get a haircut.
got the message as i was coming home…

this is the one thing they don’t warn you about with a puppy.

it was saturday night,
around 9pm or later,
and i stepped out right quick for to talk privately on the phone.
i was probably out in the hallway for an hour or so.
i come back in and the puppy to’ my laptop charger to shreds.
^ that was the outcome above.
when i font you…

this movie was a trip.
Foxhole,
watch it now on HULU.
NOW.

we have to be careful what we wish for.
i’ve learned that many times tbh.
i’ve done it with wolves,
people,
and tbh,
transitioning to this place i’m staying at now.

it isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be.
even though it drains TF outta you,
it either isn’t meant for you or meant to challenge you for better.

the pay off is you gain skills that the “easy mode” path didn’t.
i felt that way watching the 2023 movie,
“what you wish for“…

i didn’t ask to foster to a puppy.
i never liked the idea because i know me.
i’ll get close to an animal,
bond with it,
love it,
and train it only to then let it gotta go to someone else.
living here has been heavy on impulses with light chaos tbh,
so this puppy has been my peace.
i had the option to adopt and even though its a few hundred,
it’s not on my budget especially with the apartment deadline over my head.
well apparently in a message today…

black bomber jacket
black jeans
birkenstock loafers

these ones for reference:

Foxhole,
he looked mixed but he could have been white.
he didn’t look like a rican and dominican wolf i was use to in the new yawk forest.
either way,
i don’t know what TF he was but he was fine.
i took a random outing to TJ maxx with the person i stay with.
when i was looking around the store,
he was in the bedding section with who i assumed was his vixen.
i was looking for the men’s section because i needed socks.
while i got distracted by the many pairs of jeans they had in that store,
i noticed he was by himself and closer to where i was.

…but no,
okay,
wait…