i managed to save up a whole stack so far.
i’m trying to be on the next thing smoking,
sooner than later.
if i can get 3k in the next 2 months,
i’m gonna put down my security deposit on my own place.

i was trying to be in The Foxhole this week,
find my rhythm again,
but it gets difficult when you’re staying with a chaos agent (maybe i’ll nickname them that)
this week was yet another installment of:

“the jordan peele movie that i didn’t know i was casted in”

the latest drama was them losing the whole apartment…

a wolf slid me his number yesterday.
i had spoken to him on the phone at work and he sounded cute.
like,
really cute.
usually,
that is not the case with some males on the phone.
anyway,
the part that got me was when he said…

“jamari…
i know you are upset but you have got to stop letting this take over your emotions.
i’m gonna help you turn this all around…”

that was someone i’ve met here that i word-vomitted to.
they could tell i was up to my wits end with it all.
so they said in font earlier today…

so last night i got off work,
met up my neighbor to watch the latest episode of “euphoria”,
and when i got in at around 11pm…

i didn’t move here for this.

when i was told to come here to escape my last situation,
i didn’t think i was jumping from a frying pan to a pressure cooker.
i feel like everything i was told was a lie,
along with truly not knowing someone i’ve known since the late 2010s.
i didn’t move here to deal with all of this craziness.
it has really been taking a toll on me tbh.
last week,
after that 17 dollar incident,
there was a bigger blow up that has made me even more uncomfortable…

again: 17 dollars.

yesterday,
so i was told to be out of this apartment by july 1st.
i’m at my new job,
trying to focus on what i was doing,
but i’m getting the craziest texts in real time.

all over 17 dollars.

i had to send people the screenshots as they were happening.
when i’m not in here anymore,
i’ll post them with more details on the entire situation.
imagine staying with someone…