recently,
i caught feelings…
or so i thought.
he is so sexy to me.
it’s his voice,
how attentive he is,
and how he made me feel seen when we were together.

But…

there were many times i’d feel more confused than connected,
but somehow,
i still wanted more.
for a while,
i told myself it would work.
“lied to myself“,
actually.
as the conversations showed more emotional detachment,
and the connection started feeling more skimp,
i started feeling something i knew all too well…

what is corny,
really?
i found myself asking that question today while watching everyone drag akademiks:

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it is giving loud,
off,
and “do these people even like him?”.
everything about it screamed cornball behavior but i had to wonder:

We throw the word “corny” around a lot but what are we actually calling out?

right now…

Foxhole,
I went to the promise land over the weekend.
The promise land = my friend’s luxury building.

so i met this friend at a past job.
she has been asking me and another mutual friend to come see her in jersey.
it’s been a few years now.
she was gonna BBQ and we would hang out for a little reunion.
we both agreed because it’s only jersey.
the trip there was like an hour and 40 minutes by train.
when we finally arrived,
i noticed it was HD bright.
it was the type of bright i’ve never seen in new yawk.
when we got to her building,
i fell in love as she gave us the tour:

Massive Rooftop
Huge pool
Gym
Common area
Arcade
Various lounges + work areas
24 hr security desk

but Foxhole,
lets get into the real view…

i’ve been playing “the last of us 2” as one of my friends watches.
i had so many question about the last season of the show,
“the last of us“.
the first game came with my ps4 and i loved it.
when the sequel came out…

…i was pretty excited but BOY,
where the opinions i started hearing about it were bleak.

When I asked other I know about it,
they told me how terrible it was because of how they handed Joel.

whew.
i actually got my “a-ha” moment with that sentence above.
so I didn’t play it off of what I was hearing but not only that:

We have to play as a character named Abby that gave Joel his fate for his actions.

don’t even get me started on the alleged transphobia in regards this vixen.
i think it’s because you have to play as her afetr what happened and people were upset.
that was the big “fuck this game” because of what happened to joel.
interestingly enough,
as i’ve learned abby’s backstory while playing,
i’m going on record to font that as much as Joel was my Zaddy…

hi.
i was looking at my phone when i walked in the store,
but when our eyes locked,
i think you saw me mouth the word:

“Damn.”

when i did a full bawdy scan:

Handsome AF
Nice biceps
The black wife beater showed all the meats that was on the menu

like my vixen in “sinners“:

“I wanted you to come steal this pussy.”

it’s just jokes for the “pussy vs bussy” fun killers in the back.
anyhoo,
i was made sure to adjust my body language so you could come steal this.
you gave the impression you were interested but i alas…

how do two people grow up in the same orbit,
but end up speaking completely different emotional languages?
i asked cousin hybrid that exact question yesterday.
his answer…