the universe is so funny with blessings.
i always have to say “thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!” out loud.
i was just saying to myself:

“I could do with an extra 200 right now.”

…and no sooner than i said that…
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first of all,
can i tell you how psychic i am?
i said sometime last week:

“‘the joe budden podcast’ should really come to spotify.”

it would be easier for me to listen i only use that streaming service.
boom,
yesterday,
they announced that they’ll be on spotify too.
i’m truly happy for them because they deserve it.

so trying to get the bag is tough.
all of our bags are different.
i’ve been in a little depression due to trying to get my own bag.
like,
i need a gooooooood sponsor right about now.
i’ve been thinking back to how i got to this point.
the firings and countless rejections.
the “i got chu” and not helping beyond that.
it’s been tough,
and Lord knows it ain’t easy,
but it’ll be part of this amazing story that i get to share.
so i started of what my perfect sponsor looks like…

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sometimes,
you read a story and realize just how precious life can be.
it takes you out of your self absorption for just a second.
it can show how silent enemies can be created too.
this following story did that for me.
so everyone say goodbye to armond latimore.
he just turned 17 and was looking forward to a brand new year ahead.
this is what he posted on his facebook on his birthday:

…but what he didn’t realize is later on that day,
his life would end in tragically.
this is what the “new york post” had to font…

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am i too loyal?
i know that is a stupid thing to ponder,
but it’s crossed my mind with a recent turn of events.
hell,
i’ve been good to others and thrown to the shredder on occasion.
i’ve noticed that i will fight hard for someone else,
but they will turn around and choose the obvious asshole.
an asshole that usually puts them in the shredder eventually.
so i was loyal to an associate i know…

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when you stress about an outcome,
or give it more than it needs,
it can really have you slowly lose your mind.
when you are trying so hard to figure out the next game plan,
you don’t realize you’re slowly burning yourself out.
that’s what leads to depression and anxiety.
youstart feeling tired af all the time.
your interest in things you once liked/loved slowly starts to diminish,
everyone else looks like they’re “living the good life”,
and that’s when the “i’m worthless” thoughts start to set up shop.
i can attest to those feelings real heavy.
you know what i’m realizing works better for me?…

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my old job ishaving a real problem trying to replace me.
every single person who comes in,
according to my ex co worker,
leaves within a few days,
if not that day.
i was minding my business,
working on career goals,
when she hit me up to text about the latest…

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