ya know,
i grew up with “the cosby show”.
that was my parent’s favorite show.
it showed a black family,
with successful parents,
not being “the stereotype”.
they made me want to have cubs and get a brownstone in bk.
i wanted to be like “the huxtables” so bad.
growing up,
i’ve heard things about bill cosby throughout the years,
but of course,
you don’t want to believe it.
you don’t want to believe he was drugging and raping vixens.
you want to believe he’s “heathcliff huxtable”.
so when all his scandals that took him down happened,
and boy did they happen fast,
it was really shocking.
i found this part very sad tho…

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when work wolf ghosted me,
i was a hot ass mess in these forests.
looking back,
i can see just how crazy i was looking.
check the whole archives.
those days,
i felt like i was losing my whole mind.
when i called karaoke crying one night,
and saw the comments of full draggings on the foxhole,
i knew i was in a whole other dimension.
the crazy part is he wasn’t fucking me and checked “straight”.
see there is ghosting after a one night stand and then there’s…

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meeting someone,
who just got out of a long term relationship,
is the pits.
the.
pits.
well for you,
it might be the pits.
if the break up is still fresh,
everything will be compared to the ex.
you won’t fully measure up,
but you’ll be a pleasant distraction in the mean time.
realistically tho,
you’re in a rebounding honeymoon phase.
that’s when the sex is usually bomb.

make up,
revenge,
dl,
cheating,
and “just got out of a relationship” sex is:

you’re something to do “in between”.
“in between” until they meet the next whose like the ex.
i’m in one of those right now…

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“hey jamari.
i know you’ve been here for a week.
you’ve done a pretty good job doing all of the basic tasks we asked for.
you’ve taken initiative to make sure the office is fully stocked and cleaned.
how are you feeling about this position?
is it something you’d be interested in?…”

in a perfect wonderland,
my current supervisor would run that paragraph by me.
nope.
i sat and watched all the interviews from my head huntress come in.
not only that…

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i swear,
if i was a tv show,
it’d be called “awkward black fox”.
ugh.
if i’m around new folks i’m not comfortable with then forget it.
i’m laughing like a donkey or feeling like i have nothing to say.
a whole “where is your fox swagg, jamari?” type of situation.
so today was my first official day by myself at this new gig.
well…

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antarctica.
one of the coldest places on earth.
the lowest temperature recorded was -133.6 degrees.
you couldn’t survive in that weather with 1,000 northface coats.
ironically,
one of the coldest temperatures you could feel is being on the outside.
that place where you want to feel included with your peers,
but you feel like you don’t receive the same love that others get.
that place can feel colder than ice.

i was watching i was watching issa rae’s stories today…

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