“I suffer from deep depression, so my only release is music.” – kevin gates
what if you have no energy for that?
your creative outlet?
something that should make you happy?
i’m sorry foxhole…
the foxhole makes me so happy.
besides my friends,
it’s my only source of pure happiness.
from the recent death within my family,
to this mental drama of finding a job before unemployment runs out,
money is all the way funny,
working towards my career aspirations,
and these up and coming holidays on the way,
i’m completely burnt out.
everything on me is tired.
it’s like i’m sinking in quicksand and i don’t even care to pull myself out.
i’m not neglecting the foxhole.
i think i give this more time than i actually give myself.
i had a few things i wanted to write about tonight,
but i have no energy to care.
it’s not easy being a creative and suffer from depression at times.
when the depression his you,
it can bring you all the way down.
if i had money,
i’d be on the next flight out of here.
and energy to give me fuel.
i don’t really have anyone who cheers me on and keeps me motivated.
it’s draining when you don’t feel good enough.
that being fonted,
i’m on DND for the rest of the night.
i hope you can understand.
lowkey: this is me at the moment…