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so you want to be a black (and gay) creative and make content, huh? (run?)

everyone thinks content creating is an easy job,
but honestly,
it isn’t.
from creating movies,
acting,
clothing lines,
making albums,
blogging,
vlogging,
to whatever you do that is creative,
it takes a shit ton of emotional work to do.
folks think that i wake up every day and come on here and just write.
i always get asked questions like:

“How can I make a blog like yours?”

…and i’ve always struggled with the answer.
i can tell someone to start a blog or turn on the camera.
it’s easy to do that,
but there is more that comes with it on an emotional level.
i was thinking about it for the last few days and came up with a few thoughts

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Posted in A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI

my vhs tape keeps glitching (art)

if you haven’t noticed,
i express myself through art.
you know what i love?

When a song(s) and videos are presented one way,
but there is a whole different meaning behind it.

that makes me so aroused.
you know i love an era.

for the last couple of weeks,
things have been really weird in my life.
i made this video today

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being a creative and suffering with depression is a special kind of hell

“I suffer from deep depression, so my only release is music.” – kevin gates

what if you have no energy for that?
your creative outlet?
something that should make you happy?
i’m sorry foxhole…

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