as much as disrespect can sting,
i still leave every situation in my finest hour.
even in a break up/ended relationship with a wolf.
sure i’ll vent about it,
and i’ll probably shade them for the rest of their life,
but i try not to be “that fox”.
the one who turns hyena or jackal after something ends.
so things ended at wonderland today and i handled it with…

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i don’t like commenting on certain wolves igs,
especially ones i’ve fonted about.
i don’t “do” dehydrated.
i’ve commented on shit before,
to like tremaine or bk brandon,
but it’s never on some:

“i want your pipe in my mouth”

…type of time.
i try to be respectful and have boundaries on other’s pages.
i might be the only one.
so today,
i saw a screen recording from shawn mendes ig.
he was recording live,
but i don’t know if it was recent or old.
a make up youtuber,
by the name of james charles,
left a comment…

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i sat in wonderland with full disgust today.
it was before lunch so my appetite was gone.
in the climate we live in,
we are bound to feel “painfully black” in some way.
folks are not shy about their racism.
so i was telling my cousin hybrid about wonderland today.
we haven’t spoken in a while and he wanted a life update.
boy!
did i have a ton of shit to tell him!
i told him all that was going on in this temp job.
he didn’t want to believe what i was fonting.
no one does.
while i was pouring him a good cup,
he was in the background googling.
he sent me a few links to events the company held…
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last week,
i got called in for an interview at a major fashion brand.
the pretty vixen sent me the application couple weeks before.
i filled it out,
sent it back,
but didn’t really have high hopes.
i didn’t hear from them,
so i moved on to the gig i’m at now.
the friday before last,
they blew up my phone/emails trying to lock down an interview.
it was weird.
last tuesday was the day of the interview.
it was pouring,
but i asked my new gig if i could leave a little earlier.
they said yes and i was out on time.
the office was luxurious.
it was also would be a quicker commute from where i live.
from what i thought,
the interview went well.
the older snow vixen who interviewed me was pleasant.
a little off,
but she was nice.
i got this response today about the gig…

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as much as i am looking for love…

Will I know how to really love a male?

it’s a real question.
as you know,
i love a male who works out and has his bawdy right.
when i first see him,
i think of all the things i want to do to him sexually.
this might span over a course of 2 months,
give or take.
it’s very superficial in the beginning stages of any gay/bi relationship.

What happens past “I’m sticking around”?

when the honeymoon phase is over and the real shit starts?
like,
the moment he shows he’s a human with feelings underneath it all…

Will I be able to handle it tho?

or will i go…

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inconsiderate jackals really burn my biscuits.
like,
did the parents teach them any manners?
so the penguin clearly lives in new yawk.
after his life of crime,
he is “one of us” now.
bitter,
i’m sure.
so i’m standing on the train by the door,
minding my business,
when…

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