bad enough,
i watched “bird box” a couple days ago.
i thought i’d have to use my sex blindfold.
last night,
something straight out of all the alien invasion movies happened in new yawk.
so i was laying on my bed…

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when we were younger,
christmas meant something to us.
it was the time of year where we got free expensive shit,
even if we were bad,
some of our parents took pity on us and didn’t gift wrap a lump of coal.
if you were good,
you hoped your parents got you that thing you been hinting.
the hints are usually thrown out about thanksgiving.
that is the perfect time to get other family involved.
your parents ain’t buying it,
but your grandparents will drop the coins.
if you were like me,
on like the 15th,
you’d get your magnifying glass and start scavenging for the present(s).
when you grow up,
and you don’t have a family,
you can pretty much afford what you want,
christmas can feel like just another day…

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there is no cure for depression.
none whatsoever.
you can take as much meds as you want,
it will never truly go away.
you can learn to keep it under control tho.
that’s what i’ve been working on as of late.
i was talking to pose this morning and had an interesting breakthrough.
so i sent her this article in the “huffington post”…

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we don’t ever graduate from high school.
these days,
social media has made sure of that.
you clearly see who are popular and who are outcasts.
as usual,
there is always that underdog that rises up to put paws on necks.
they end up being “the fav“,
and for some,
also start morphing into those who they had issues with.

What happens when folks bring that favoritism shit into your circle?

yeah,
this is going somewhere…

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another reject email.
i’m not mad about it.
i mean,
why should i be?
ever since i started to try letting go,
i started really seeing the power of the universe.
there was a company i recently reached out to…

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*some church folks can really annoy me.
now,
i’m not talmbout the ones who are cool.
the ones that go to church but are:

1) still regula degula
2) every other sentence about how God, Jesus, and the latter day saints are

so last night,
i went to bed with a lot on my spirit.
i prayed,
but i couldn’t relax worth a damn.
it was to the point i was tossing and turning.
i remember being half awake,
but still in a dream state…

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