i had every intention of getting up to do laundry today.
every.
intention.
instead i woke up and was all wrapped up in good “fuck it“.
i decided to head to target for some household shit,
but i used that as an excuse to do something else.
foxhole…

*insert dramatic music*

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my foxy senses are intense these days.
more intense than normal.
i seem to pick up people’s energy really quickly nowadays.
lately at work,
i’ve been feeling like an outcast at the “cool table” at work.
that shouldn’t bother me because i’ve always been an outcast.
with some of the straight wolves at my job,
i can feel the distance from them.
even with some males and foxholers i converse with online.
it’s a weird season for me.
as i was coming home on the train today,
i had some really intense energy about mi.
in my head,
i got these random thoughts that she had died or something…

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there is a beautiful black vixen at my job.

statuesque
melanin magic
clear skin

it was her birthday today and i sat in for the festivities.
i don’t know her that well,
but i’m pretty familiar with her.
when i first saw her,
i thought she was stunning.
as i listened to all of the lives she touched in that room,
one common theme stood out…

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“I always imagined a theatrical debut for you.”

that was my Cousin Hybrid on sunday of last week.
who KNEW that was the play that was being set up?
so i’ll be honest with you foxhole…

It was sitting on my spirit to reveal myself for a while now.

it wasn’t under the right circumstances tho…
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sometimes,
you have to jump on opportunities.
it can be scary,
but you can’t let fear dictate how you live.
i’ve lived in fear for many years of my life.
decades,
even?
that’s why when i got the following opportunity earlier this week,
i jumped on the chance.
so earlier this week.
i got a random dm that i think was “the chance”…

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we all live in a bubble of what we think we act like to other people.
since we are inside our own bodies,
we only control from behind the wheel.
the way we:

walk
talk
react

…is all from the control panel in our heads.
when we look in the mirror,
we might see a version we accept,
but that isn’t the true image of who we are.
it isn’t until there is a camera on us that we really see who we are.
when you see yourself on your camera,
you’re fly shit,
but as soon as you’re on someone else’s view,
you see see you truly act/look outside of yourself.
it can be a real culture shock.
some are okay with who they are.
the rest of us…

as much as i think i’m secure with myself,
i get knocked tf back down by my heavy insecurities.
i’m always face to face with something i hate about myself.
it always makes me to wonder…

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