it started getting bad like a few weeks ago.
i’ve been playing it off pretty well.
i’m still dressing fly,
and my skin has never looked better,
but i’ve been dealing with a lot deep down inside.
it’s easy to wear a mask when you’re feeling like shit underneath.
bad enough,
i’ve been “sick” af too…

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yes,
send all the chocolate.
so it’s happened.
i didn’t think i’d become “one of them“,
but i did.
i have friends and co workers who are addicted and thought i was cute judging them.
they leave them on their desks and in plain sight.
a fox couldn’t escape them if he tried.
now…

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often times,
i wish i was connected af.
in my everyday life,
those who don’t know me tend to second guess me.
like clark kent,
you don’t know that pineapple is really superman.
for me,
i wish i had that life where i could solve issues with one phone call.
i don’t know if its the life of being mixxy,
or those who were on “gossip girl“,
but i always wanted that “i know the right people” shit.
while in one of my dreaded work meetings,
i had a fantasy that i wished was a reality…

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i’ll never forget the day i walked into a job and it was so uncomfortable.
it was on some serious high school shit.
it happened 3 years ago and i learned quick that it’s easy for folks to switch up.
all it took was the words of one person to change many opinions.
it got so bad that someone wanted to fight me too.
some of these folks i stood up for too.

All it took was one person

this is what can happen with coworkers…

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i don’t know who i am and that’s okay.
matta fact,
that’s great!
sp i’ve been reading a book every morning on the train called:

“The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck” by Mark Manson

…and it has been helping me tremendously.
this morning’s chapter has sat with me all day.
my beliefs about myself and where i stand as a fox were challenged.
i came to the conclusion…

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i never use to have anxiety before.
crazy,
but i remember when it all started.
it was with this one demon boss that i had back in like 2009.
before,
i’d go to life with regular butterflies in my stomach.
after her crazy ass,
once my anxiety would reach it’s maximum…

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