when i saw the poster for the new movie from a24,
“pillion“,
i knew exactly what that collar represents.
someone i was talking to recently introduced me to the sub/dom culture.
it was something that i heard about but never knew the inner workings of.

i found it sexy AF when he told me that he put a collar on his last partner.
the collar represents that as a dom,
you are his.
the collar isn’t always metal btw.

he told me how when he was in the bedroom with his sub(s)…

i want you to do something for me.
ready?
it might be a big ask for some but…

i won’t even hold you but last week drained me dry.
i was at an empty and the only way i could get a refill was to step away.
has anyone noticed the forests have been non-stop confusion lately?
since __________,
we haven’t had a break or a moment of peace.
if it ain’t been this; it been that.
so last week,
you all know we witnessed a(nother) murder for the forests to see.
i was pretty indifferent to it but what really drained me…

so i watched this interview with derek dixon,
the alleged victim accusing tyler perry of sexual harassment,
and something still isn’t sitting right with me.
for one,
he hasn’t explained…

one thing i learned from my mother was how she handled wolves.
when it was time to go,
she go.
there was no announcements or big blow ups and like clockwork:

i watched those same wolves circling back in panic,
blowing up the house phone,
knocking on the door,
and suddenly remembering her worth.

i’m not quite as ruthless at times but when i’m done,
i “be” done.
this isn’t just about wolves either…

i know a wolf IRL who deemed “the fine one” by society.
he looks like ^this wolf here.
the “every fine light skinned black male with a beard” starter pack.

the vixen he is with is so paranoid about him cheating,
she has his password to his IG account.
you don’t even know if it’s him replying or if its her.
i do know you it’s obvious when she posts under his account and when he does.
when she posts on his wall,
since she dressed him and took all the photos,
his posts get a lot of likes.
when he does it because it’s often low effort,
it doesn’t get as much engagement.

she legit works as his assistant,
photographer,
stylist,
personal chef,
other half of his brain,
and finance advisor.
the wild part is when they take pictures together,
he either looked bored or they look like platonic friends.
she isn’t a show stopper in the least but when i think of her shenanigans,
i’m often left to wonder:

does that helicopter relationship-ping remove what made them attracted to you in the first place?

i saw a reddit thread today about a gay couple,
where 1/2 is “the fine one”,
but the other half is feeling insecure at all the attention the other gets.
i use to struggle with this but i had to realize…