r&b creates magic within me.
it can make me happy,
emotional,
horny,
or heal my broken heart.
when my soul is aching,
a good r&b mix-tape can do just that.
i’ve been feeling really out of it lately,
but my soul urged me to do something i haven’t done in a while…

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relationships are not easy.
i’ve started to learn and realize that.
it’s not all sex and social media selfies.
it is learning how to adapt and grow with another person,
even when they get on your last nerves.
their shit stinks,
they might be selfish,
or you have to teach them how to be in a relationship.
zednray,
the two wolves in a relationship,
seem to be making it work.
well they debuted something new and i must say…

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we don’t realize when we have fallen into a dark place.
it isn’t until someone points it out that we face that truth.
you can acting one way for the public,
cheery and having a “i’m good” mask on,
but be a whole other way deep inside.
that def has been me tbh.
i’m here to tell you that i’ve been faking it…

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i didn’t start the foxhole based off my looks.
for a long time i thought i wasn’t attractive tbh.
i started this platform based off my words and expressing my thoughts.
i stayed in the shadows for many years and its a blessing to have grown with my supporters.
today,
after my cut,
i felt inspired to do something on the foxhole ig.
that is a place where i usually highlight the best meat on the market,
while giving quick bites on my ig stories.
i decided to put myself on display…

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“Can you enjoy your own company?”

that was the question in a video i saw over the weekend.
so i spent 90% of my entire labor day weekend in the crib.
besides still being in a pandemic (or are we?),
the people i would spend this weekend with left new yawk.
the other set are down in brooklyn and i’m not taking the mta right now.
so it left me home,
as i’ve spent many days alone since march.
this is the last day of summer and being perfectly honest…

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this week,
i hit a wall emotionally.
it started last week and carried on to this week.

Is my wolf of interest still interested?
Friends suddenly acting shady
Chadwicks’ sudden death
Black lives not mattering to police
The RNC not giving hope
Feeling alone

i’ve been trying to find answers to things and it has left me baffled.
i’m a natural investigator so i want to know shit.
i need answers or closure.
i have been feeling sad and down in the dumps tbh.
the crazy part?…

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