i had on my schedule to pencil in some time to watch “halston” on netflix.
it stars ewan mcgregor,
who plays the iconic fashion designer,
and was executive produced by ryan murphy.
when i was moonlighting as a freelance stylist at fashion week,
i did one of his shows.
see:

shout out to the ones who put me on to that.
anyhoo,
i took three important tidbits from the show…

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stop worrying about your reputation.
it means nothing out in these forests.
fairytales told us that the good ones win in the end.
*cough* bullshit.
they said the villains get defeated and banished from all the lands.
*cough* more bullshit.
i was having a conversation with the pretty vixen yesterday about reputations.
i was telling her that you gotta look good in other eyes but she countered it’s all lies…

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settling.
there was a time in my life where i was cool with settling for a wolf.
in those important “seeing if we are compatible” stages,
i wanted to be the ultimate fantasy to date or fuck.

“I want someone who will suck my dick every morning and let me fuck every night.” – wolf 1

“Yup! That’s me.”

“I only want to be in an open relationship.” – wolf 2

“I’ll do it!”

“I want to date both you and my current girlfriend.” – wolf 3

“That won’t be a problem!”

or one of my past favorite lines that never was me:

“I’m not looking for anything serious like you are either.”

…when i actually was,
but that phrase sounded better so i could be picked over the others who wanted him.
it was all a “no bueno” for me,
but like a job,
i simply agreed so i wouldn’t be single.
like the jobs,
i end up not being with those wolves long term either.
i’ve been having thoughts on the great settlers on the relationship plains…

Why do we think settling will keep us happy in the long run?

hmm…

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i use to own a little sports car many years ago.
it was an older model,
but you couldn’t tell me shit when i was in that.
this was way before i started writing on here.
i was living at my sister’s aunt’s crib and life was kinda peaceful.
something went down and i owed money on the car.
i ended up having to park it and get on that metrocard plan.
it stayed parked for a year or two without movement.
i would have to go shovel it out of snow every winter.
sometimes,
i didn’t.
one day i went out outside and saw a red letter stuck to the window…

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accountability and holding myself accountable.
my therapist told me i should try something new.
at the end of every week,
whether saturday or sunday,
write an entry about:

Good things that happened (no matter how small)
Things I struggled with

get everything i need to get out as far as feelings and emotions.
at the end of every entry,
add the next steps for the upcoming week.
in doing this,
it helps others understand they aren’t alone and can help them take accountability too.
i don’t expect many to respond,
but i’m willing to try this for myself and my development…

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i’ll never forget i was standing in the concession line at barclays for a basketball game,
this had to be about 3 or 4 years ago,
and this fine-ass wolf walked past with his kids and equally fine wife.
you know i was like who dat daddy isssssss?
when i looked closer,
i saw it was devale ellis.
i remember devale from various web series and i always thought he was fine af.
he has since upgraded to bet’s “sistas” by tyler perry and moved to la.
i saw these photos taken by joshua dwain and…

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