“Lol Jamari you sound like you just broke up with your boyfriend.
Don’t have that pineapple turning you into a long Adele video.” – one of my fav foxholers in an email
i think what hurt my feelings was treating me like i didn’t exist.
that is the part that stings the most.
i’ll tell you all because we are having “fox talk” right now.
its’ done tho.
work wolf and i are not friends anymore.
after all this childish cold shoulder bs,
i came to a decision that this has reached it’s expiration date.
i’m sure they thought that a while ago.
i wanted to hang on because i was so sure.
“so sure” i’d end up getting hurt…
after this last incident,
i knew it was over.
there was too much betrayal on his part.
he didn’t out me or anything crazy.
he just wasn’t loyal.
he tried to turn it all around to make it look like it was my fault.
i am always trying to make our friendship work.
hell we been through some bigger shit,
but we always find ourselves back to being friends after a fall out.
well scratch that.
i always found a way back and low-key awarded bad behavior.
it usually starts with him,
but ends with me wanting to resolve the issues.
i am just use to that,
even though with my current squad,
we don’t argue.
he isn’t that wolf.
i thought i was different.
hell he told me i wasn’t,
but yet he treated me like everyone else he doesn’t respect.
so this last time tho,
i wasn’t going to apologize because i def did nada.
what i did do monday?
send a text so we could just move past the drama.
what he do?
my foxy senses told me to text him this final statement.
i basically told him:
thanks for the friendship
this wasn’t my fault
i wish you good luck
enjoy whatever endeavors you pursue next
no “fuck you” or anything crazy.
he “read” the message,
it went through as “delivered”.
he tried coming around my area,
to “talk” to liar liar,
with his phone in his hand.
i guess that was him trying to be spiteful?
i don’t know.
i simply continued doing what i was doing.
there will be no “reaction” from me.
i’m not a jackal or hyena.
animals always try to get a rise out of me.
my “ignore” is a masterpiece.
coming home tonight,
i erased all his information out of my phone.
i don’t deserve to be treated like this.
i will admit i am sad,
but i’m no one’s idiot.
shame it ended like this.
after all i have done,
this is what i get in return?
i really thought we would be friends for a long time too.
my feelings are hurt,
but what can i do?
moving on will be a bitch,
and i have to see him at work,
but i’ll have to adjust.
i had to wonder tho…
Did my friendship to him mean anything?
…or was i that easy to throw away and never look back?