are you prepared for when things come to an end?
sometimes you get no warning.
it’s like being the best employee at your job,
they call you into the office to let you know you’re fired.
all these thoughts go through your head…
“what the fuck?”
“i busted my ass…”
…but it all still leads to your ass is out the door.
as you get your things,
you notice all the other animals who don’t do shit.
the slackers and simpletons.
they still have their seats.
you damn near busted your ass every day and this is your outcome.
i feel used.
like a pit stop or a kleenex of sorts.
mi is headed to her next destination.
she leaves here with no fucks.
i feel like she wasted my time even coming here.
she didn’t have to ask for nothing.
even after we fought,
i still let her stay.
i tried to look out for her knowing she lost her mother.
she brought nothing.
now she has the nerve to have an attitude like i did something to her.
work wolf is now with some new vixen.
they look happy judging from the pictures on his social media.
he hit me up the other day to tell me he “missed me”,
and he would love to chill,
but he spends all his free time with this new vixen.
i wanted to see “suicide squad” with him but i’m not going to be a third wheel.
he seems to do all the things he did with me with her.
it sorta hurt my feelings.
i feel like i was casted away.
i thought we would be friends for a long time,
but maybe he used me too.
don’t even get me started on my job and career.
at this moment of my life,
i feel a pain i never felt before.
i can’t explain how it feels.
something is missing from my life.
i learned a lot of lessons this past year.
a lot of doors have slammed shut in my face.
the tears want to fall,
but i’m embarrassed to let them.
i decided that all this mess won’t turn me bitter,
but i’ll try to make sure it turns me better.
i simply wish it all didn’t happen at the same time tho.
i guess God needed me to learn the hard way.
i’m tired of learning the hard way.
lowkey: i wanted to write how i was feeling at this moment.
is that okay?