i found out yesterday that someone in my family has breast cancer…
this is on the side of the family i’m closer to.
they don’t live in new yawk and they didn’t want to “worry” me.
she found out about it earlier this year.
i have been talking to her periodically with no mention of it.
she recently had to have both of her breasts removed.
cousin hybrid only told me because her lungs were inflamed and she was admitted into the hospital.
well the news hit me like a ton of bricks.
just when i thought i would have a break from the fuck shit,
a whole new pre-packaged fuck shit comes out of nowhere.
i couldn’t even focus on the foxhole yesterday.
i spent the afternoon legit crying,
i didn’t feel like doing anything.
today feels much better,
but i can’t help but keep her off my mind.
i don’t know what’s happening with my 2016.