I went out with a friend of mine that I knew for years to an industry event the other day.
I wrote about him in blogs of past. We will call him Hubby In My Head. He is someone that I have crushed on since I first met him and now, almost four years later, we are still going strong as good friends. TOP, dark chocolate, and Spanish brotha and oh so DAMN sexy to me. He is definitely a nigga. Going out with him on a harmless get together felt so great. I sat so close to him as he did me. I slyly flirted with him and he coyly flirted with me. We wrote undercover texts to each other since we were with “The Straights”. He was scared to look in my eyes, but did anyway. I returned the favor with slight peeks. I wanted to touch him but due to the circumstances, I couldn’t. I did manage to squeeze his bicep in a low key fashion (I’m good trust). I made sure I sat next to him at all times. I poked him secretly on his butt cheek as we we walked up the stairs. He quickly put me in a playful headlock. AAAAAAH. It felt so euphoric.
But there was a slight issue…..
Yup. He already has a husband – and I was Lady GaGa (in that gif).
Why does it seem
, more and more,
everyone is in a relationship… but YOU?
Discreet gay men are either lucky or we aren’t. We can be lucky by meeting someone of our dreams and being in a relationship for a very long time. No more game playing or soul searching. We have found the one and can live a very comfortable life. While, the rest of us, are still searching for Mister Right in a room full of Mister Dead Ass Wrongs. A tiny small room in the back of the big picture, where everyone has already fucked everyone.
When us Single Fox Whores get around other couples, they are looking at us in one of two ways. There is total pity. Like, how could you be single? You are gorgeous. Yeah, tell these other TOPS that. Then, they try hooking you up with someone who is totally NOT your type just so you can join the secret Members Only Discreet Gay Dating Society.
Pin and complementary cup included with your membership.
But then, there are others who do not even WANT you to be around their man. You are officially the WHORE, MAN STEALER, or… yeah, a whore. I have went to meet fellow bottom Foxes who are with already with someone and they start displaying jealousy. Some of the TOPS were cute, while others, I wouldn’t touch with a ten foot pole attached to another 10 foot pole. I am a pretty social kind of guy and I love to talk. Truthfully, I would flirt with a tree if it gave me the attention and I’m not doing it purposely I apologize that me and your man are actually getting along.
Clean your face up and join the conversation!
Truth be told, some of us have that “I don’t know him” mentality and go fuck the guy. Just like I felt when I was about Hubby In My Head. I was feeling a certain way when he is around me, like I usually do. He is a gentleman so I know nothing would pop. He is pretty committed and I respect that. The thought of taking a man that is unattainable is a thrill of many Single Fox Whores alike- but then I had to ask myself would I want that to happen to me if I was with him?
Well at least I’m with him so…… ok, I’m still trying to make a decision.
Yes! It is wrong.
Sucks but, what can a single Fox do? I would have felt bad in the morning if something did pop off…. or maybe a couple days later….
Yes it is wrong.
If he was Devin Thomas – all bets are off. Sorry.
So us, Single Fox Whores, have to wait until it is our turn. When it will be our turn to play “jealous” when a new “us” is looking at our man funny. Or, to recognize how the struggle is in this single life and actually feel pity for “the new us”. Just like Lady Gaga is the “new” Madonna. Well, there will be a new “Jamari Fox(es)” once I am taken, and he will be sniffing around my Wolf.
Let him. I own a gun lol.
it’s a long road to love’s doorstep and I need a drink.