i need to stop underestimating myself.
that is one of my biggest faults.
i woke up to an email from my head huntress:
great position for you.
2 weeks/maybe longer.
love to get you in the door.
my fingers typed “sure!”.
“sure” with the exclamation point.
i don’t know why i did it,
but i figured it would be something to get me out the crib.
i would have to do a phone interview before they could consider me.
they called me as soon as the “apple event” started yesterday.
i thought i bombed that interview.
for whatever reason,
i felt like i didn’t answer the questions quick enough.
it was like i was stumbling over my words,
and not giving my best “you got this” self.
not to mention,
they needed an updated resume and i sent a reply email without it.
i chalked it up as an “L” and kept it moving.
there was no expectations since i felt it was a disaster.
i guess i didn’t do as bad as i thought because i got a email today:
START TIME TOMORROW AT 9am”
as much as i need the money,
i had to ask myself if this was the right decision?
the thought of doing another desk job makes me cringe,
but my career monetization isn’t moving fast enough.
i’m bitter sweet about working in another corporate structure,
especially after that last job turned me off so bad.
this time with this job,
the pay is higher and i’m a really good area,
Am I ever going to make it to my dreams?
that’s the question going through my head.
Am I wrong for feeling this way?